Making a Maniac

Lately I been so cold, lonely Feel I'll lose myself oh, slowly Wonder why they act like they know me Ion go outside yeah I been layin low key Let me take it back, take it back to the fifth grade Kicked round everyday for stupid shit like my first name Middle school was rough I always struggled to express pain It made me quiet, made me private, then anxiety and stress came I was cooped up in my room for 4 years I was always feeling doom and gloom, hid all of my tears Never really got to bloom, developed more fears Never really checked on at all by any my peers High school came around and it was time to be a better Jack Tried out for the team for self esteem they said good luck with that Tried to break out of my shell and then still got attacked That shit really put me through hell and that's a fuckin fact 10th grade I met my prom queen with angel wings Someone who could lift some weight, self hate, and make me sane 2 years a long time to not think bout a wedding ring But nothing goods forever when you find out what the winter brings Find out what love really means, we share all of our biggest dreams Then it change into a bitter theme, more arguments and louder screams They tell me people come and go, we were both going through it though I think I did it cause of me, anxiety, or quarantine, ya know But I'm so alone And it's so cold I could use somebody to hold Lately I been so cold, lonely Feel I'll lose myself oh, slowly Wonder why they act like they know me Ion go outside yeah I been layin low key Might go out like Kurt Blood and tears all on my shirt I was never shown my worth So why the fuck you think I'm hurt And all they say is Jack, you're a fucking maniac I can't get my life on track this ain't no sweet life Code and Zack Fuck Stoner alcoholic, this strain make me nauseous Find out that my mom sick, that shits catastrophic My whole life I've been in pain and you cannot relate the same They gon hate me till the fame or til I blow my fuckin brains