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When I was 11 I was hit with depression Relentless obsessions made me feel pathetic When i was 13 only thing on my mind Was ending it all committing suicide I remember this one fight was crazy as fuck Was on the edge of the ledge told my mother I'd jump My mom called my bluff said stop acting stupid You're too scared to jump "go ahead and do it I looked down truly considered it Pussied out but now I wish I did that shit I know my mom loved me she'd die if I did it But this the type of sickness a sick kid had to live with One of many fights one of many sleepless nights Risked your son's life for your need to be right Now I'm the middle child who's lost all his dreams I'm stuck in between two kids with good genes Mom was showering praise on my brother and sister So I cut myself out of my family pictures When I approached my sis I was always ignored She was a mean girl acting like regina george An immature kid that tried to fit in But she's changed now been a good person since My brothers my dawg but it's hard not to be jealous He's tall his wifes angelic, I'm short and feel pathetic Gotta be tall to be tough, but shit I don't get it How the fuck is bruce lee only 5'7? I don't want a girl that's tall I know that I'm small Don't want a girl to pin me, and kiss me against the wall But some of you short girls you act hella dumb 5'6 Is too short bitch you're 5'1 Hope you height loving gals give birth to some short kids Wait til' the boy grows up doesn't fit in Tell him height doesn't matter he'll find someone interested Height doesn't matter shit mommy's a hypocrite Now bitches don't get livid from these bars that I'm spitting But the following bars, are for you snobby women You don't want to be seen as a piece of meat With half your tits out stripper heels on your feet I see these dumb girls and think shit its hella sad to me Trying to look ravishing cuz you lack personality So now you look fantastic but way til you grow past it Ugly old bitch with a face full of plastic Stuck up snobby bitches fucking drive me insane You'll be left with saggy tits ill be left with my brains Well won't be left with my brains, cuz I'll be burning in flames My body cremated leave my mother in pain ADD OCD it's got me drained So many D's like a scene, with sasha grey Jokes aside, it's led to so much pain Had to learn to survive from such an early age These pills made me a robot took away my feelings Im staring at ceilings I'm not a human being They might make pills that change your brain's chemistry They don't make pills that erase traumatic memories Cuz years of rejection led to tears and depression Fed my fears and regression made me feel so pathetic Living in madness can't stand the sadness Chemicals unbalanced so call me a faggot Label me a fag cuz my genetics I got fucked in the ass by natural selection Y'all think depression's a cry for attention You think I want your affection I got a question You think I take pride in losing my mind A 30 year old guy that cries and wants to die Yeah I love the attention y'all are fucking crazy The mentally sick card it works with the ladies My life's so sloppy, always feel so groggy Y'all can't survive a fucking day in my body I'm in so much pain now, and I don't see a way out But people don't believe you, til' you blow your brains out I strive, to survive, I breath I stay alive Wait til my parents to die and then suicide