Why Me?

I want to use your boat and it's the hardest thing for us to understand sometimes Why would the one who can walk on water have any use for our boat We grew up living off the government We struggling My mother did her best to pick up slack my dad left What a loser How could you up and leave your seed I don't know the roots on that side, but yet I still grew to see This is the world through the eyes of a poor black man I'm feeling empty inside no need for a cat scan Just take my word for it what I deliver is real And open up the package to see what has been concealed I remember thinking about my momma she skippin' meals How she did this for us cuz we ain't never have much If I bought a bag a chips then we splittin' the bag up Stealing from the store is something that I couldn't pass up Risking in time in juvie for this tv set Fought tears everyday but even Jesus wept That's when my momma said boy things would get better Just keep your head up these days won't last forever Why me? I ain't seen my mother in years Why me? Gotta degree but have yet to find a career Why me? My brother's sick and mentally ill Why me? I love life but hate the way that I feel Why me? Woke up on the wrong side of the bed Cuz ain't no money in my bank account Tell me what else should I think about? Coming from the gutter, not too many of us make it out Mother still on section 8 the man she married man I used to hate And question God like, Lord you sure that you don't make mistakes Then take it back and apologize cuz that ain't my place I'm sorry Christ, I'm not sayin' I'm not a Christian It's just hard to keep repentin' everyday I'm steady wishin' For this job and this money people treat me like a dummy If I see a cop then I'm a victim feelin' lumpy Like a bowl of Malt-O-Meal on Monday mornin' I pray that you will help me Father everyday I'm yawnin' Tired of livin' this life, I've been forced to live I've been growin' up with pain since I was just a foster kid But that's just one issue, most likely it's where it started Being broke in the hood has got me feelin' broken hearted Why me Man, I can't seem to be happy for long Why me Nah, I ain't got no friends callin' my phone Why me Feelin' stuck with nowhere to move Why me If you were me then tell me what would you do Why me The Lord spoke to me yesterday his timing was perfect He asked if livin' through pain to get him and was it worth it And that simple question it got me thinkin' a lot Cuz what I went through don't compare to neither Jesus nor Pops They both gave sacrifices The Father gave his son, Son gave his life What they did for me was so priceless How could I be so vain Like I didn't deserve the pain Like eternal life is something everyone just should've gained I'm not perfect and I'll admit it it's true Instead of asking why, I should simply be thanking you And when the days get rough, just be happy I made it through Relinquish this self entitlement blame first attitude I'm only human, made in the image of God Nothing more than your creation Lord get rid of my pride Pump my heart with the truth and diminish the lies See what was void in my heart is where my Lord now resides Why me Why me Why me Why me