Window of My Eyes

Last night I heard the rain on my windowpane All I could think about was all the time my mamma kinda begged me to change But I ain't listen, and no this ain't living Tryna kiss your kids through a fucking glass window, no contact Feed me through the tray hatch, even took the telephone Tryna holla at my kids, baby mama never home Serg and his boys got a problem cause I'm Boosie Surrounded by rats so they can tell on me, crew shit Same with the new shit, paint a bad picture of me With that picture in my head, was scared, I was gom' never touch Living like the rest of us, and go the lifers Working in a field, man over ya with a rifle Letters get shorter, face get greyer People ain't got no paper, we might die in this bitch This ain't living, I wouldn't wish this shit on my worst enemy Feel like the whole world envy me, know I'm talking 'bout Co-defendant flipped on me, glad he done flip back Nigga was like my real son, killed me when he did that Look in his eyes and look in mine, I be like "God damn" They tryna stop a nigga shine, I think it's time I Open up the window of my eyes, my eyes, my eyes I think it's time I open up the window of my eyes, my eyes, my eyes I think it's time I open up the window of my eyes, my eyes, my eyes I think it's time I open up the window of my eyes, my eyes, my eyes I sit in the dark, it's so quiet I hear my heart beating Two times faster than it did 'fore I was captured I'm dreaming that I was free, I wake up like "God damn" Sometimes I stare in the mirror and don't know who I am I feel like Joe in the Bible, why is what I scream My eyes don't even clear with drops of Visine I'm mad for being Boosie, so sad my eyes hurt Only way the sun shine, I get out the rain first On the phone, son crying, and I wanna wipe his tears Change his diapers, clean his ears, now you deep off in my eyes I try to let it go but I got hatred up inside Keep moving in slow mo' like the Matrix in my eyes No sleep, no rest, so I'm feeling like I ain't blessed It's true I got more than most but I'm caged up like the rest The devil's tryna defeat me, my closest friends deceive me Question marks behind my freedom and got me badly eaten I wake up feeling delusional, thoughts surface my brain Visualising my kids, them thoughts turn into pain My passion ain't what it was, my faith medium-rare People I thought loved me is saying like they don't care I'm stressing, biting my nails in my cell in pain Me and the thunderstorms in my eyes can't see the rain I'm calling out to the man, impatient I gotta wait I know he come when he want but I need him to come today No one to kiss me and hug me and tell me it gon' be okay Plus the sickness that's attacking my kidneys like everyday I think it's time Open up the window of my eyes, my eyes, my eyes I think it's time I open up the window of my eyes, my eyes, my eyes I think it's time I open up the window of my eyes, my eyes, my eyes I think it's time I open up the window of my eyes, my eyes, my eyes