So Many Tears

I shall not fear no man but God Though I walk through the valley of death I shed so many tears (if I should die before I wake) Please God walk with me (grab a nigga and take me to Heaven) Back in elementary, I thrived on misery Left me alone I grew up amongst a dyin' breed Inside my mind couldn't find a place to rest Until I got that Thug Life tatted on my chest Tell me can you feel me? I'm not livin'' in the past, you wanna last Be tha first to blast, remember Kato No longer with us he's deceased Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets Now rest in peace Is there heaven for a G? Remember me So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears Ah, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears Now that I'm strugglin' in this business, by any means Label me greedy gettin' green, but seldom seen And fuck the world cause I'm cursed, I'm havin' visions Of leavin'' here in a hearse, God can you feel me? Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain Show me some happiness again, I'm goin' blind I spend my time in this cell, ain't livin'' well I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail? My life is in denial, and when I die, Baptized in eternal fire I'll shed so many tears Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer To embrace an early death, now there's nothin'' left There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest I'm barely standin', bout to go to pieces, screamin' peace And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it I had my mind full of demons tryin' to break free They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin' the flame Inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game No memories, just a misery Paintin' a picture of my enemies killin'' me, in my sleep Will I survive til the mo'nin, to see the sun Please Lord forgive me for my sins, cause here I come Lord, I suffered through the years (God) and shed so many tears God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears Lord knows I.. tried, been a witness to homicide Seen drive-by's takin' lives, little kids die Wonder why as I walk by Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin' high This ain't the life for me, I wanna change But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game I'm trapped inside a maze See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin' crazy Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin' babies So I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady Don't trust my lady, cause she's a product of this poison I'm hearin' noises, think she fuckin' all my boys, can't take no more I'm fallin' to the floor; beggin' for the Lord to let me in To Heaven's door, shed so many tears (Dear God, please let me in) Lord, I've lost so many years, and shed so many tears I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears