I believed the last night evening morning day dawn month summer winter spring autumn year journey was the last time I saw reached dreamt of stood in front of cried for smiled with made love to persuaded depended on you Your face in my future past hope expectations time ahead time to come pocket picture image painting path beside my empty bed notes frame game spirit soul life body figure emotions feelings You know said thanked me thought understood comprehend appreciate recognize realise grasp I never did it on purpose my darling sweet heart joy everything my babe sugar love dear happiness But the pain joy happiness bliss glee strain stress sadness distance loneliness companionship I feel in my heart is too much to bear brush away push away receive take get imagine envision see fancy break built I believed saw thought dreamt swore doubted imagined supposed made-up cursed warned you the train bus metro airplane pickup bike ship sailing boat time spell magic charm was running away from me Taking Pushing Pulling Dragging Shifting Moving Slipping Gliding Forcing Directing you to another place I didn’t know think see realize understand comprehend recognize get consider want existedFar away from the moments time instants joy happiness elation pleasure sadness gloom game we lived were survived breathed shared lasted endured carried on puffed bore together Moments Stars Skies Mountains Words Paradises Havens Shelters Harbours Sanctuaries Utopias that belongs to us alone and nobody else knows cares joins us understands sees discerns hears listens to blames picks up I believe in your eyes kisses ideas mood sincerity honesty words blindness stubbornness humour and your heart virginity senses sensibility gentleness anger feelings awareness blood breath wisdom I believe in the past we spent played smiled jumped ran had fun sailed spoke had loved prized together apart unruffled to one side on the beach in a motel laying down on the dock at the harbour loving each other playing in the park cycling I believe in the journey trip drive voyage walk energy determination ambition motivation effort we walked left endured suffered loved missed wasted escaped forgot liked smiled side by side I believe in my feelings staying with you spirits state of mind outlooks attitude position calmness serenity peace stillness capacities you always enjoyed appreciated loved regretted busted out yelled at disintegrated discharged raised embraced hugged I’m sorry I let you down was late betrayed you was angry cried shouted am not taller don’t like dogs am a vegan it surely was not my idea intention purpose aim good day instinct nature difficulty effort struggle power I don’t regret understand navigate cross forget forgive kill live blame pity track the day on the beach gathering seashells sand stones my thoughts driftwood myself your pearls your joy your sadness your beauty Amused by a barking lonely lonesome angry gay joyful mad annoyed large small wonderful dog running along the shore road avenue field meadow paddock park estate village hamlet harbour Delivering Abandoning Leaving Departing Exploring Traveling Feeling Tasting Licking Biting Piercing joyful answers questions retorts bones awareness happiness stares flowers minutes hours discovering three feet in front of usI remember our favourite ice cream book cinema film song duty creation painting car pub time melting down the cone Hall wall fire glass bottle tangerine bones comet city lungs plug lights Dirtying Cleaning Showing Pushing Extending Shaping Cupping Loading Suspending Shattering Crumbling our hands while laughing shivering smiling crying looking trebling trembling muttering mumbling kicking like a foolish childI miss you more than ever myself my eyes my guitar my grand piano my jewels my favourite car my best friend a bottle of gin my diamonds my endless nights I want you to be here with me in my room in another place without jealousy without your clothes on the road on a plane on my mind in my shoes with my dreams Come to me in my secret place a private place the restaurant the train station my boathouse the garden a rockery a marina possessions my library my den the space I wait fear clean dust lust blast paint figured out worked out explored travelled for you