Christmas Paralysis (feat. Seth Benjamin)

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Didn't really like holidays
Reminded me of my darkest days
Say Jesus came but don't feel that way
More like when nobody cared for me
I was isolated
Suicidal Felt death not homicidal
Think Christmas spirit seems real entitled
With so many broken indulge in spite of
Our loved ones who lost loved ones
Some can't afford to buy kids none
Don't get me started on church numbers
Wanna fill the pews so they can pay the ushers
Mental health suffers
People internally dying
They smile not to worry their mother
And don't forget there's a large percentage
Of people who don't have a family who loves em
I don't know if I can pray with madness in my eyes
I don't know if I can see the truth behind the lies
I don't wanna break but this feels like a breakdown
Tragedy's in my mind
I don't wanna stay but I don't know if I can move
Ove ove ove ove ove ove ove ove ove ove ove
I'm paralyzed
I left the faith when I was 25
I would pray to God but I was paralyzed
Cuz it seemed like He wouldn't listen to me and I couldn't move I felt dead inside
And then One night I called an ambulance
I was damaged from all of the pain that I'd hide
Couldn't breathe like a heart attack all this panic started overwhelming my mind
Depression effected my choices hearing these voices telling me I should give up
I was about to crazy I couldn't face it feeling I wasn't enough
Doctor told me I was healthy I was like better recheck don't believe the results
Soul was sick and I needed fixed no I couldn't believe what my life had become
I don't know if I can pray with madness in my eyes
I don't know if I can see the truth behind the lies
I don't wanna break but this feels like a breakdown
Tragedy's in my mind
I don't wanna stay but I don't know if I can move
Ove ove ove ove ove ove ove ove ove ove ove
I'm paralyzed
I remember being so sick over Christmas break
Didn't leave the room
I could hear em all talk about me outside the door
But I couldn't move
Never blamed em
They never felt how I felt so glad that they never knew
If they did prolly be consumed
Like darkness surrounding without the moon
That reaper tried putting me in the tomb
Then I cried out nothing else to lose
Jesus help me
So unhealthy
I forgot that He wanted to heal all the wounds
That were self inflicted
Or maybe genetic
Regardless I needed a medic real soon
Barely believed in the healing revealing
The enemy wanted to keep me confused
I'm not saying that you lack faith
I'm just asking that you to have faith
Emotion can lead you directions you never expected
And keep you locked in the chains
Gotta find someone you trust
Burden you carrying
Isn't embarrassing
Breaking the stigma
Cuz that was the variant
But now I'm sitting across
I'm a therapist
Couldn't believe that I made it through Harriet
I found the light when my life was nefarious
I was in bondage and that was the scariest
Pray if I'm talking to you that you hearing this
Hoping the holidays make you aware of it
People are struggling wanna give clarity
Had to get right give you dexterity
Jesus the reason for the season
I'm changing the narrative

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