Kill Switch

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M.C. Mars

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I wish I had a kill switch
For the darkness that brought me down
Into this abyss
This psychic ditch full of piss
Like Donovan said
This is the season of the witch
Peep this
I can look back but not ahead
My neurotransmitters must all be dead
No wait
They're starting to twitch
They tell me my life is
Always gonna be a bitch
I know I know
This kinda thinking leads to Misery
Self-imposed exile and anguish
I'm paying what I call karmic vigorish
Stuck under a Bell Jar
Eatin' poison licorice
That's why I wish
I had a kill switch
Or maybe just some
Way outta this
Holy scripture says
My soul is precious amethyst
Or maybe it's
Just pustular and pimply
Or maybe I simply
Need to see a spiritual dermatologist
But that would imply
That this is surface level shit
And it's not
This is stab you in the third eye
Red dot up close
I'm givin' up the ghost
I tried everything
Okay maybe not everything
But a lot of shit
Got crossed off my checklist
F*ck a bucket list
A Buddhist once told me
I had a hole in my fortune bucket shit
I asked her to explain
She spouted doctrine
That didn't pertain
That's not how you speak
To a person in dire pain
I'm not mopin'
My soul is blistered and it's wide open
She really didn't consider
The knee-jerk answer she gave
And I understood
I'll probably take this
Depression to my grave
But I'm speaking truth
Truth about my own mental illness
How other people see it as weakness
When emotion chokes you up
And leaves you speechless
Summoning darkness is a talent
You can't teach this
I'm the triple-crown winner
The Derby the Belmont Stakes
And the Preakness

Mind soul
Mind soul
Mind soul
My mind splits into pieces
From the pressure my soul releases
The negative imagery never ceases
In the ripples and the creases of my brain
Which is reputedly
The seat of intelligence
But that's totally irrelevant
The imprint to destroy myself
Is buried deep
The way circus trainers
Train a baby elephant
Yeah
I'm about to spill my guts
Like a cat Wiggin' out on angel dust
Hearing voices that can't be trusted
Urging suicide all blood-lusted
Saying you don't cut the mustard
Subliminal shit way down encrusted
Blood diamonds and criminals
Of the Subconscious whispering
You incompetent stupid bastard
I'm trafficking in human life
Financing an insurgency
I don't love myself
And I need to
Do it now urgently
But the Universe is hostile
Or so I believe it to be
I know woe is me
Me and my violin symphony
So let's try this on for size
Lemme take you on an amusement ride
The feral mind the dragon slide
With hairpin turns
That lead to suicide
A lot of people have these issues
But they won't talk about it with you
Until it's too late
And then they say how much they miss you

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