HEAVENLY FATHER
RXS3
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Lost faith in the father Lost faith in myself Lost faith in what I see Lost faith, I'm giving in Giving up Lost faith in the trust Broken promises I made I can't handle all the shame Always swore I would never be like him Abandonment it runs deep Should be the eighth deadly sin But maybe it's just angst Words that form themselves in trance Shut my mind off, let the soliloquies dance I don't know what to say When faced with my problems I just hide away Always running from consequence Tryna make change out of pounds and pence Money in my wallet goes to a fix for my head You could call it medication, more like meditation On a theme of make believe I'm steady chasing Making conversation with the man upstairs But I don't hear a reply, wonder why I even try Was everything just a lie? Making mountains out of molehills and molehills out of mountains It's an Everest I'm mounting tryna rid myself of doubting That this could ever be anything Picket fencing, but I'm just venting So this the second side of therapy Ain't nobody there for me Staring at a corner rhyming bout the way it's meant to be Never make any changes As I carry on aging Getting older but not wiser Always be a stunted child Personality deficit Born without a pot for piss Growing up I wasn't shit Still waiting for the opposite Never tried to make a hit Only tried to blend the sound Covering the same old ground Don't know why I'm still around Lord knows that I shouldn't The things I regret The things that I couldn't Pile up on top of me So heavy that I cannot breathe Wish they'd just let go of me I'd repent for my sins But what's the use of repent when I'm gonna relive them Too many addictions I ain't fixin' Lifetime never promised for a sharp mind Not on witty shit, my neurones cut like razor wire I'm scared of myself Sick of being scared of the future I was running from the jump, man my guilt was heavy I had your body on my mind all through February Thought the grieving should have stopped I thought my heart was ready I thought id made it through worst But the worst was yet to come Sixteen, far too young for a cemetery I just wish I could have helped Wish I picked up the phone I was chasing one more high as your spirit returned home Just wish I could see your face Show you where you could have been Lifetime never promised but we keep living for the dreams My mind's on holiday, feels like it's there to stay As I just waste away, same four walls every day And every face I see, they all turn into you But I'm just lying to myself, there's nobody else like you I'm just tryna get my mind right All these hopeless nights, dreaming 'bout the limelight But everything is nothing, if there's no-one left to share it with So this one is for you, my rose, my everything Bottled up All the feelings that I kept inside Bubble over out the side I guess that's why I wrote these rhymes It's been weighing on my mind Since the day I missed your funeral A continent between us though I never had a chance to go I never got to say goodbye I guess that's why I use your name Just to carry on a legacy I hope you're smiling down on me I hope that you're still proud of me Everything I used; tried getting over you Couldn't get used to you living in a casket Weaker than tomorrow, but stronger than yesterday Every day I make it through, forever dedicate to you I'm just tryna get my mind right All these hopeless nights, dreaming 'bout the limelight But everything is nothing, if there's no-one left to share it with So this one is for you, my rose, my everything Crawl out from under the overdose Plainclothes watching so I gotta keep my secret close Timecode, run it back Wake up in an ambulance Got marks, ain't running track If it's a race, call this a record setting victory lap Ten seconds from the top to the bottom Ain't a fucking role model I'm just stuck in all my problems They're killing me Hallucination slowly turns reality I used to promise I would never touch sniff That's a lie; I just said it cause I couldn't admit That hope was never there, only saw the despair Generational pain, was my mother's cross I bear And her mother and her mother and her fucking grandmother Fear and anxiety set in my biology Studied chemistry, never got good grades But I'm street smart, I know exactly what to take Physically, I'm falling apart Try to stay together, I'm never easy on the heart Marathon lines in these troubling times One day ill drop I'm sure the choice was never mine If it was would be through by now But I'm still here somehow Stand up and take a bow It all stops when the penny drops Living ghoul, a paradox The holy gates forever locked Guess I get what I deserve, don't I? It all stops when the penny drops Guess I got what I deserved Isolation served with a side of just deserts Yeah, I guess it's all my fault Smoking grade waiting for my early grave Man, it's just too much to take Just threw up in the lobby Escorted outside, dare security to stop me Only there for a link Stop and think Watch my life toppling down Let the public gather round I put my heart out on display I left my mind backstage Like a bird let out a cage I'm never coming back again Separate myself from pain Depersonalisation That isn't me in the mirror Just the ghost of paths I've taken Fork in the road where the two shall meet Both come to same defeat Ain't no sermon left to preach Ain't no lesson left to teach Just don't repeat my mistakes End of line, turn the page Guess I get what I deserve don't I? It all stops when the penny drops Yeah, I'm a wordsmith with a black heart Got trouble making bright art Figure out where time starts To take the course of life by both hands, tender touches The joyous straws I'm clutching, strands of hope there's an angel coming So I guess this is a happy song Lord knows, I never wrote one before I don't know where to start, I guess we play our parts It's my god given gift to profit off my darkest thoughts Lord take me to a place where the sun shines A little place that's just mine 'til I fizzle out and flatline Where i can sit on the beach, read a book and drink some white wine Look at the waves coming in, when it's high tide I'll stay inside with candle light, flip the record to the other side Mitchell at her finest is the soundtrack of my perfect night In the morning, rain is pouring but I don't care, Feet up, hot chocolate in the armchair And on another day you'll see me there Staring at the waves again In my head without a care You'll find me in my happy place We all need solace sometimes A place to rest our minds When troubles start to climb We all need an escape From the monotony The constant threat of loneliness When checks don't come with bonuses When the stress that's piling on just gets too much Create a little getaway you can trust Know the corners of your mind can get scary I know you have the power, turn your demons into fairies And then you can be free However temporary Shut the world off Live in the imaginary Self-dependence is the hardest learned lesson It's your strongest weapon in a world that's out to get you But maybe it's not, maybe everyone cares There's beating hearts behind vacant passing stares They too have their worries, may not show it in their face But maybe, they too found solace in their happy place And on another day you'll see me there Staring at the waves again In my head without a care You'll find me in my happy place Heavenly father, gotta say I ain't been sleeping well Keeping well, think I lost my faith in a wishing well I take a coin and flip it, all comes clear as it falls This ain't heaven's gates, but I see death, feel the claws If not today then it could always be tomorrow Our time is borrowed, no use wasting it in sorrow So I've been working on myself, have I made you proud? I'm just looking for a signal that you're still around Heavenly father, it's been six years since I've seen her last I still apologise, but it could not have been her time to pass She was just a kid, wit
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