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(I'm still, I'm still)
(I'm still getting)
(Used to me)
(I'm still, I'm still)
(I'm still getting)
(Used to me)
(I just can't fight anymore)
I cannot fight this war with you while I fight one with myself
These demons are savage
Make me feel average
But I cannot ask for help
How could I subject another human being of sound mental health
Into this dark twisted world that I've gotten myself
That's why I'm not sure I deserve nobody
So I push you away
Half the time I don't wanna settle the over half want you to stay
There's always a choice to hear all the voices
All of the things that they say
To let your insecurities go and dig your own grave
I'm feeling trapped, and I know for a fact
My mom gon hear this and gon overreact
Things are good I know that I'm blessed
It's something I'll never forget, I
Just need to take that next step
They say practice what you preach
But how could you believe
Me saying it'll get better whenever you see
Me sitting depressed in the chair, I sink
Don't follow me
Don't be proud of me
Don't text me and tell me that
I've always wanted you
How could I not send a message back?
Damn
How could I not send a message back?
I'm at the point in my life where I'm with no games
When there's this much pain
That remains in all of my veins
Me she tried to change
Outta a good heart
She only wanted the good parts
That triggered me
That made me mad
That made me sad
Even though I didn't want any of the bad
In myself, so I should've wanted all the help
But there was something about
Her not accepting me for me that brought all my demons out
I tried to hide all that so that you could never tell
That I was living in hell
I took some losses
They turned to lessons
That don't mean I took them well
I know I'm still making up for all of the shit that I did
No one is perfect you bound to f*ck up especially when you a kid
But to me that's no reason
That you should ever forgive
All of the capping I did
Like I was working at lids
It's prolly none of your biz
But karma been gunning for me, yeah, she a real bitch
And people laughed when they thought that music was gonna go full time
People were so worried I had lost my whole mind
My mind was in a rough place
And people always tell me
I don't need to do more of anything
But I don't feel like me
I used to have purpose
Now all I have are these dreams
They're moving slower than expected I'm eager and so is the team
Once I get things to a solid place, I'll finally be able to breath
The pressures all me
I'm doing this for we, yeah, for we I gotta succeed
If I don't, I don't know, if my actions can be held responsibly
I was on my last string, so things will get bad if I can't do what makes me happy
I got this back and forth of wanting to grow my following on social media
And never wanting to go on the platforms until I really needta
Promote the music, promote successes
To share my life, to share my blessings
To share my lessons
I hope that one of y'all hears this
And understands the truer message
You gotta use the gifts God gave you
No matter how many might hate you
Finding what you love to do will make you
Happy
And others might say that that's great
Then sacrifice all of their time online for corporate drones who don't pay 'em enough to Make 'em miss all the good times
Like the smiles of love, the joy from above, counting down to the weekend so they can Vent to their boys of how they've had enough
And I'm not saying they need to quit
No, my 9 to 5 still is equipped
But I'm doing something exciting for work I'm truly interested in
That's all I want for you people
All those real enough to see the evil
Of how lucifer may try to beat you
But our Lords power is more than equal
Halfway He'll meet you
So much for why I am thankful
It's all love
And it can be for you
That's what I pray for
I almost lost my faith 2019 in May
Had to go back to my roots and how I was raised
Had to stop listening to they
And it's okay most people won't make it this far in the track
They'll claim that it's fire even though their body language will tell me they think that it's Wack
Don't got to sugar coat nothing with me, in fact
My gut always knows, so it's better you say what you wanna say
Everyone loves rainbows but it's hard to shine on a rainy day
And to learn in order to blossom you gotta start from the dirt
Most days I feel I know my worth, but some days whenever I'm feeling my worst
I question my thoughts with full concern
Why would I think that I would never get hurt
Why was I put on this earth
To make people smile
Go the extra mile
Be the middle child
I don't need things I never did
I always had things as simple as a roof over my crib
Things that we took for granted
Gotta give back through my advantage
You can change someone's world without having to change the entire planet
That's important to me
Other things are no longer important to me
All of my new priorities have given me new authority
I'm not the same me I used to be
Didn't like that at first I'm still getting used to me
Yeah, yeah
I'm still getting used to me
I'm still getting used to me
I can't hear your scrutiny
You don't do the things no more that you think that you do to me
You cannot get through to me
This ain't nothing new to me
I can't fight this war with you that you would want to fight with me
(I'm still, I'm still)

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