Grey Watercolor Skies
Adam Cedar
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I was born in Bristol Indiana, 1989 I don't remember that town at all but that's where I got this name of mine I grew up on books, mistakes, knee scrapes and tree climbing In a sunken island, in Utah, I was shy but never realized it Would turn into a dragon, keeping me inside my walls at all times I used to hide when we had company, but didn't recognize the fault lines Then again what's fine for a child isn't always for a grown man I kept each monster on a short leash, as many as I could hold in I used to have blond curls, when I was younger, only knee high Mom says all along I've had the same big brown eyes A tempest inside each pupil swallowed by a hungry night sky A solar eclipse that only hints of amber light on the outside Strangely solemn and serious, even since I was a young age My parents read me books, I was sure I'd be a great writer one day The only thing that came quicker was my impulse to run away From anything that might expose me, like film to a sunray As I grew, so did my personal mythology, I always knew I had something important to do, if I could only follow through Me and my friends would play games of make believe So I built fantasies when problems came to make them leave My first day, of school was second grade, quite exciting I still remember being called on, the fear striking like lightning I was bright then, but worked slow as cold molasses Had trouble seeing the sense in school, even after I was fit with glasses Years past as they do, I grew and I grew Dropping in and out of school taking odd jobs, with people I knew Teen years, rebellion, mohawk, destruction of property Disgusted with country that ate war and shit poverty Insomnia, procrastination, anxiety, depression I built a little lost city out of all of my broken lessons Fear and doubt became the cell that I slept in I was introduced to poetry and started writing confessions The burnt rubber smell of Armageddon, or of empire ending The taste of loneliness, the weight of a sentence Feeling dragged through the crush and the exhaust Hoping for some great escape, I guess I found hip-hop Never mind I didn't know the first this about rhythm or song writing It painted the walls of the cell where I had spent so long hiding Plus I was destined to write, burn bright, and inspire Problem was not being a person that I could admire Each setback damn near broke my young heart open Forgetting that true love and wisdom aren't spoken I had to learn the art of stained glass romance and start over And out come the wolves of doubt, smelling that hearts odor I'd think – I'm wasting my time, I'm not good enough for it Or I'd think – no one will understand me, they'll ignore it Which ran in contradiction to my fire and conviction Moods swung like a pendulum, more was thought then was written As more years were swallowed by times greedy maw Me searching for purpose, for peace, for cause Always waiting impatient for meaning to bloom I moved out to Portland to a shoe box sized room Hoping to find truth in the rubble of the struggle I lived If truth be told, I think I was in trouble and running again The perfect getaway right? nothing to float me there but my art Fulfilling a dream, sink or swim in a tank full of live sharks A change of scenery found me catatonic, frozen with fear Never heard that in cities things are never as close as they appear Shoulder to shoulder with strangers some of my loneliest years Long walks under grey watercolor skies that shed tears No blame in it, no glory, two years, two apartments, no job Borrowing money from family, just to hold the cold off Went hungry, lived drama, ended up homeless Crashing in an RV as broke as me and the girl who owned it Life charged me with change, trial by fire, judged flammable Learned a little about being a man and a lot about being an animal I lost lovers, lost time, wrote a few songs, a few poems Traveled, unraveled, tied knots, grew, decomposed But somewhere in the laughter, or the pause between breaths I was starting ever so slowly to believe in myself Simple unsung victories, held in the still quiet of my nature I had strength enough if I'd but stop running and stay here My own fire started burning brighter, as I made fuel of my ghosts Melting the ice fear had place like rope 'round my throat Decrystallization of everything that had held me in stasis Done waiting, I'm going to make it like no but me can make it No kings, my own hero, f*ck a cynical spin A celebration of living daily, feeling good in my skin Telling the story of the moment that a shy little kid Met his challenges wide eyed, and didn't pretend
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