I'm Scared

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TiPolar

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I dread the day I need a blood test, I'm scared I'll like the feeling
Scared my inner demons get a hold and they start feening
Scared to turn into my dad, hit the gear and start dreaming
But I can't be like my dad, I can't end up ODing
There's a lot of shit lately that weighs on me mentally
I'm scared I'll lose control, I know it's deffo hereditary
There's a few things I feel creeping in genetically
But I can't go out the same way, no, that can't be the death of me
Tryna dodge an addictive personality, suicidal thoughts
Psychotic episodes and bipolar disorder
I need to hold control, try and keep my life in order
Need to be a good dad, need to be there for my daughter
So far I've avoided drinking and I've avoided the drugs
To try and keep my mind at bay cos I don't want it fucking up
I know that it's too late if I put it down to luck
I'm only trying for your sake, I just hope that it's enough
Reading my dream journal it's got a dark side to it
No wonder I grind my teeth out when I'm trying to have a kip
Throw another grand at my dentist cos more teeth are chipped
It's so disturbing to read, I think I'm getting sick
I'm scared my subconscious will override my conscious
Everything I'm saying, it probably sounds like nonsense
But my brain's wired like a French car, it's bound to give problems
And I can't run from myself so I've not got many options

I'm writing this now in case I do lose control
Just to show you I wanted to avoid going down this road
Truth be told, it's inevitable no matter what I do
The last two generations got caught and I'm guessing I will too
I'm so fucking scared, I don't wanna lose control
And I'm far from prepared, I don't know if it's preventable
I guess I'll have to ride it out to see what unfolds
But there's a few things you should know just in case I do go
I was scared to procreate but you gave me purpose
Even if I could, I would never reverse this
You make me smile till my face aches, I know that you're worth it
They say nobody is, but you are so perfect
I just hope the blood you got from me is watered down enough
I wouldn't wish for no one to have too much of this stuff
I hope you live life how you want to cos this ain't a rehearsal
And here's my apology in advance in case you get cursed too

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