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Sometimes I don't feel like I'm enough
I don't wanna be away from all the love
I don't want you going back and forth so why
Can't you stay a little bit longer it aint fun
Dark nights when I cry in my room
Feeling dazed and confused
Do I know the whole truth?
Did she lie about everything? All the abuse
From a dude that she hate I don't wanna assume
But it's bad
I'm an overthinker you can tell
I don't talk about my issues I got demons in my hell
I believe her every word but I'm feeling pretty cursed
Help me break it fore I do something bad it's not worth
Leave me in the dark and you'll see what I can do
Flash back when I'm fifteen stuck inside a room
Friends doing good while I'm pondering my youth
Wasting all my days with a blade and no food
Mental health declined
People thought that I was fine
Guess I'm good at faking my emotions with a knife
Sixteen I was throwing up all the time
Felt like taking twenty pills maybe going through a line
I don't really like to blame other people it's a lost cause
Only blame myself because everything is my fault
I'm the reason why my parents fight every damn night
Even if it's not true this is what it cost
Yeah
But what's lost is lost
I've only drawn a pawn
I never get the king cause in the end I saw
I saw my future drawn right in the hand of god
Seventeen came around pretty quick
Started with my wrists and I slit like a bitch
Not a perfect start But I'd like to think it's better than the last
I'm really trynna stop reminiscing on the past
Sometimes I don't feel like I'm enough
Do you really wanna see what I've become?
I know you don't but I really wanna show
'Cause I can't keep hiding my emotions everywhere I go
Just turned eighteen and I'm feeling kind of different
Got a new girlfriend but I feel like something's missing
Maybe it's the trauma from the past I was living in
I should get a therapist my girl been saying that it's next
My feelings come and go but I keep it on the low
I cry about my pain and I don't feel like I can show
My feelings come and go but I keep it on the low
I cry about my pain and I don't feel like I can show
I just wanna feel like something real
Daggers in my heart they're made of steel
But I'm glad that it's me instead of a weak being
I'm talking with all my demons now I'm flirting with a deal
Give up my soul and all that I'm worth
I think it's my time I should already be in a hearse
Feel like I'm not a good person
I'm living on a journey that's cursed
I want hurt to stop flow through all my body and nerves
"If I bend over backwards for you
Do you promise to help me if I need it to?"
That's what I said right before it all started
You told me you would and then left me in silence it's time that I move
As my journey continues along with this world
Whatever I do it relys on the truth
Issues come back and then they reemerge
Just give it your best don't be stuck in a room
Sometimes I don't feel like I'm enough
I don't wanna be away from all the love
I don't want you going back and forth so why
Can't you stay a little bit longer it aint fun

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