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Woke up in the morning
Tryna keep my vision straight
Thinking last night was fun, but this isn't great
I'm living fate when I'm staring in the bowl and it's full of everything I ate last night
On my dinner plate
I feel another round coming
The decision's made
Sniffing and spitting and getting sweaty on my liquor face
Take a look around
Spinning like a figure eight
Shit, I just got another whiff
Here I go again
Time to get the rest out, but I'm stressed out
F*ck, how am I gonna get home?
What's the best route?
I rode over on my bike last night
And the hangover headache's gonna fight that light outside
So I get up off of the floor
Start riding
Throat's sore
Stop at the grocery store
Think I'll get a water and a burrito
Take two bites
Realize I can't even eat, no

The next leg of the journey my stomach was churning and I was still so goddamn thirsty
I couldn't drink the water, cause it's hard to swallow it
Inside all I feel is a hollow pit
And all of this isn't worth shit
I'm the worst fit
No good at keeping it under the surface
I'm about to blow chunks in the bike lane
Luckily there's nothing left
Still tryna fight pain
Please God, give me a break
Yeah I had my fun, but it was all just a big mistake
All I wanna do is lay face down with a pillow on my head
Do my best to escape sounds
Wait, how did I make it on the pavement?
Ate shit
Bike down
Hope I didn't break it
Finally get home and I open up the deadbolt
Peace is rejecting me
Hopefully my bed won't

I really wish that I never did it
But what's done is done
And I have to live with it
The memory's ingrained in my brain
So vivid
But what's the point of life if you never even live it?
You gotta learn from mistakes you make
Don't take them for granted, they make you great
And the place that you land is the safest place
Cause you're never gonna do it again the same way

Slide a Tylenol down that throat
Allow last night's memory to be a ghost
It'll haunt you, yes
But now you know that your limit is the minute that your vision starts to go
In a state of mind in between space and time
I can't tell if I'm great or fine
But I'd rather be here than after 12 beers
Where my fears come near and I make them mine
Going through the motions and I'm hoping that they open up the notion
That I'm living life floating in an ocean of potions
And I'm soaked in regrets
Holding on to my lessons and ascending from the depths
What's left?
Nothing but a next step
And I'm heading in the right direction, so I guess that I can try to move forward
Write up a new order
And have a different answer when they're asking, "are you cornered?"
Now I see no reason to believe that inebriation is what I need to succeed
It's no help when you're sitting on your knees
And your head's in between your legs and you're struggling to breathe
Even though it seems like the best way to get into the scene
It'll only drown all of your dreams
Never turn to drinking to feel worthy
You'll only feel dirty
Begging for mercy

I really wish that I never did it
But what's done is done
And I have to live with it
The memory's ingrained in my brain
So vivid
But what's the point of life if you never even live it?
You gotta learn from mistakes you make
Don't take them for granted, they make you great
And the place that you land is the safest place
Cause you're never gonna do it again the same way

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