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When I'm not high
I feel I can't hide
From questions I need answers to
Like have I lost my mind?
We traumatise ourselves with virtual lives
Repeat the cycle, try not to cry
I'm waiting
They say good things are coming to me
But I'm breaking
A void of colour is all I can see
I'm over wondering what the world wants from me
I used to have a vision, now it's under me
'Cause in the new world, you gotta pay to be seen
Pay for your reach, out-stretch all the pain underneath
I've been fighting the villain in me
It's too hard to love what I see
And maybe I'm just negative
But when your dopamine dies, can you please tell me the benefits
I treated every fucking girl right and they still left
And I know for a fact the sky's blue, but it feels red
I look in the mirror saying "You used to be a pillhead, you've come so far"
Yeah, but I don't really feel it
I came up from smokin' and grimin' and stealin'
Wanted to make something better and reel in some hooks
Done hangin' with crooks
But I know I was happier, more understood
When I'm not high
I feel I can't hide
From questions I need answers to
Like have I lost my mind?
We traumatise ourselves with virtual lives
Repeat the cycle, try not to cry
I'm waiting
They say good things are coming to me
But I'm breaking
A void of colour is all I can see
I thought I had to make myself bigger, like a puffer fish
Then I thought I needed to downsize and see a fuckin' shrink
But I'm lost and confused, I don't know what the truth is
I look at my life and ask God why did you do this?
Why didn't you do shit when my family was in ruin?
I could blame you, but it feels so fucking useless
It's hard when every father you ever had was abusive
It's harder when your mum's the one who taught you what a noose is
360's the one that taught me be vulnerable
I could be strong man, but I don't fit that mold at all
I'm just hoping I can hold it all without letting my shoulders fall
And carry your weight, so you know you're not alone at all
I know my head's fucked up, but I stand tall
Might be spending too much time thinkin' about the curtain call
I know I'm still young, but this is what I stand for
Tryna make life brighter for the ones that don't want it anymore
When I'm not high
I feel I can't hide
From questions I need answers to
Like have I lost my mind?
We traumatise ourselves with virtual lives
Repeat the cycle, try not to cry
I'm waiting
They say good things are coming to me
But I'm breaking
A void of colour is all I can see

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