Sunshine to the Rain

I spent my years isolated Couldn't live with myself I was trouble as a young kid My tears didn't help Very depressing and it was evident I'd fade to the deep All alone like these four walls came at me Barricaded cause my mind state I just wanted to die Never happiness Just sad time living a lie Rater leave me I was suicidal Slittin' my wrist Mamma thinking I was crazy Like use some sense And on them days I was feeling I was paining inside It wasn't me It was my inner feeling coming alive I remember waking up like I was going to school Left me standing in the hospital Locked in this room Put away I was a troubled kid losing my mind Fallin' short Of what they expected from me every time So don't fault me if you meet me And I look to be strange I'm just mad that the sunshine dies in the rain [Chorus] Sunshine to the rain When it comes it goes again Even when the story ends Just turn the page and begin again Sunshine on cloudy days Don't hate me I'll never change Thankful I was made this way Your sunshine for cloudy days Now I was raised in a neighborhood With half of a dime If you was real it was understood It showed in your eyes Every corner had a different hustle Sprawled on your face Drug wars Growin' up raw cause violence the case Had to move along Quiet it's kept Spoken words got you dealt with So ride with yourself I'm a juvenile They telling me get down for they wealth No getting high Cause when you gettin' high You needing some help As far as help Mine was middle though You know how that go Psychologically I deal with demons talkin' in codes Hopefully, I'll get to meet Jesus Somewhere on this road Sick of hearing people screaming in my head saying no Better of if I was dead Cause they killing me slow All in all it's just a part of my life Watching the show Ain't nothing never came to niggaz sleep Except for a dream It's like a movie with the ending credits etched in the screen [Chorus] I prayed my last days of sunshine Just die in the rain Kinda selfish But I know that dying Eases the pain Heartfelt words Spoken hurt Provided the frame For the picture I done painted for the master to explain So I leave behind my testimony Witness to give Far from holy But this matrimony provided the script To live on And live by Grow up and grow on Get on and get by So forth and so on And this here's the last days I can hear the horns singin' I can see the red sky I can hear the drum beating I seen the dead die How long will they mourn Jesus At least I'm saved by my scriptural warn readings And while leaving you here Believe what you believe in But you don't want to not believe Believe in seeing Don't take this here too personal Cause I'm just speaking This is my family on my mind [Chorus]