Survive

You woke me up to talk ninety words out loud My heart raced through the hall at 3:00 And I can't sleep at all So I think about the small detail Of everything I cannot actually change You keep me awake Counting my age What are you saying? You're counting the days Lines on my face Why are you staying? I'm pretty sure that I'm dying And I've never not survived We're pretty sure that I'm dying And I've never not survived My chest pulled tight enough to choke me out of light I haven't been outside in weeks I'm not missing out cause I'm awake for every inside joke I'd rather not have known if I could sleep But you keep me awake Counting my age What are you saying? You're counting the days The lines on my face Why are you staying? Surely it's normal but I'm unprepared As all of my functions are under repair Showing your colleagues how well you can act But to breathe in the dark is just too much to ask I'm pretty sure that I'm dying It's everyday since I got here I'm pretty sure that I'm dying And I've never not survived We're pretty sure that I'm dying And I've never not survived You bad fever You steal all my water Garden variety Cancer of the home Unremarkable demon Average low light ceiling Conditional love Excusable behavior You bad believer You turn me into boredom A quiet lobby You're why I work from home