Changes

Shadows swimming in my head lately, I don't mind See I'm not gonna let me go crazy, not this time I'm going through changes, I'm gon' make it for sure (I'm going, I'm going) I'm going through changes, but I've been here before Uh I haven't stepped out of my house in seven days Haven't shaved, haven't showered, haven't changed Same clothes, different day Another good morning pissed away, eh Got the whole world looking right at me Actually, feels like, people start to look past me I've been around, feels like this just might be our last dance I'm frustrated, I'm past tense I still don't feel like a has-been I don't but, it's like a ghost town up in the studio Nobody comes around here no more I guess that's just how the movie go, uh I don't like playing my old friends new songs They don't listen to rap like back when They all grew up, kinda moved on And how can I blame 'em, huh I used to sleep, eat and breathe this shit But now, the older I get I'm questioning if I really needed this I used to stress what people said And what people thought about me Now I worry about if my daughter Can make it home from school without me But still at the same time As I'm writing this rhyme I'm in my kitchen My daughter's trying to tell me about her day I hear her, but not really listening I'm staring at her But in my head I'm putting these words together I know that I need to do better 'Cause what I do now could change forever Shadows swimming in my head lately, I don't mind (I'm going, I'm going) See I'm not gonna let me go crazy, not this time I'm going through changes, I'm gon' make it for sure (Uh, it's a fall from paradise) I'm going through changes, but I've been here before Uh And I know, I'm so indecisive these days And musically I feel confused Don't know what I'm liking these days I'm just taking time to check all the new shit Plus all of the drugs they doing And I know I'm a hypocrite I smoke these spliffs, only 'cause Snoop did Ha, glad it was just weed But even with that I'm noticing, I'm losing my passion I'm getting too high, it's harder to focus with And all of my pothead friends They take pride in it, pride in it And all my alcoholic friends Denying it, denying it And all my coke-head friends They still hiding it, hiding it I'm just hoping all of us survive this shit, survive this shit Damn, I was never too good at showing emotions I get awkward at serious times Uncomfortable in genuine moments I ain't big on giving hugs I use this music to show my love That's why it's so important But lately it don't seem so rewarding Something's changed Shadows swimming in my head lately, I don't mind (I know, I know) See I'm not gonna let me go crazy, not this time (I know, I know, I know) I'm going through changes, I'm gon' make it for sure (Uh, it's a fall from paradise) I'm going through changes, but I've been here before (Uh, let's go) Ooh, ooh, ooh Changes Ooh, ooh, ooh Changes They told me call it a day They told me maybe that's it Then I get these messages from my fans Who tell me don't ever quit 'Cause my music saved their life Like literally, they heard my song On the way to the train tracks And something I said's the reason they came back I used to convince my fans just give me a chance But now they're the ones convincing me Now they're the ones convincing me, yeah I used to convince the fans to believe in me and my truth But now my fans believe in me Maybe more than I do