Tragic Endings

I'm stumbling, I can't see straight And it's my fault I got this way I got my hands on something great And found a way to mess it all up I did my best, I tried to change But it's just in my DNA I got my hands on something great And found a way to fuck it up again Now I'm the one thing You couldn't hate more But you're the one thing That I would die for All my life, I was told I was never nothing special I don't need to be reminded of it Every other second 'Specially when all my self-esteem's Already shot the hell up I'm fallin' helplessly, I'm embarrassed And I don't want no one else to see 'Cause I feel like I'm a piece of shit Every time she yells at me Selfishly indeed Definitely doesn't help that she Makes me feel like I've died and gone to heaven But makes life a living hell for me She does that thing with her lip Now she's melting me I'm putty in her palms I'm wrapped around her finger A yo-yo on a string She lets me sit there and just dangle Until something better comes along And she'll just drop me like a hot potato I look like I'm in pain But I'm okay, though 'Cause I know she loves me My friends, what do they know? It's like I'm drowning at sea Hoping that you reach for me I know you're there but I can't see 'Cause I'm so drunk off tragic endings I'm dying to breathe And all you do is strangle me Such a beautiful relief 'Cause I'm so drunk off tragic endings Drunk off tragic endings In my moments of weakness I openly admit this shit, I wouldn't normally I'm extremely self-conscious And enormously Insecure and she uses it to torture When she torments me It only turns to ammunition for her In this war When she gets going, she don't stop When I'm up, she's like a downer When I found her It was love at first encounter Plus, somehow, she must've took the carton Of eggs off the counter Cracked them and placed all the shells on the ground For me to walk on when I'm around her But there's just something 'bout her That makes me not able to function without her How can I get out of it When I don't know how to? I'm a doubter, I'm a pessimist Make a believer out of me And show me the way now Or stay the fuck out of my cloud of rain 'Cause I'm going straight down the drain I'm drowning It's like I'm drowning at sea Hoping that you reach for me I know you're there but I can't see 'Cause I'm so drunk off tragic endings I'm dying to breathe And all you do is strangle me Such a beautiful relief 'Cause I'm so drunk off tragic endings Drunk off tragic endings Now I'm the one thing You couldn't hate more But you're the one thing That I would die for It took a while for me to get it But I think I've figured it out She don't want me, she just don't wanna See me with someone else The idea of seeing me happy Destroys her in itself To see me falling to pieces Brings her joy, brings her hell But it annoys her to see me Get this straight, then say "screw her" I threw up on myself, I'm dumb sick I'm addicted to her She's tryna block the door So here's how I do her Since I'm manure, she's a sewer This time, this piece of shit's running through her I can see the light now, I'm running to it What the fuck? Should've knew it Who would think she'd actually have the balls to do it? As soon as I hopped in it, she doused the car with lighter fluid She's standing there with a rag, 'bout to put the lighter to it Lit the fucking thing on fire, then she threw it It's like I'm drowning at sea Hoping that you reach for me I know you're there but I can't see 'Cause I'm so drunk off tragic endings I'm dying to breathe And all you do is strangle me Such a beautiful relief 'Cause I'm so drunk off tragic endings Drunk off tragic endings