Unbecoming

I lost myself into the night And I flew higher Than I had ever But I still felt small I clipped my wings and fell from flight To open water And floated farther Away from myself And I swam in the wakes of imposters Just to feel what it's like to pretend There's no dreams in the lakes only monsters And the monsters are my only friends They're all that I was And never could be Eyes in the dead still water Tried but it pushed back harder Cauterized and atrophied This is my unbecoming Knives in the backs of martyrs Lives in the burning fodder Cauterized and atrophied This is my unbecoming You found me drifted out to sea It's automatic It's telepathic You always knew me And you laugh as I search for a harbor As you point where the halo had been But the light in your eyes has been squandered There's no angel in you in the end And all that I was I've left behind me Eyes in the dead still water Tried but it pushed back harder Cauterized and atrophied This is my unbecoming Knives in the backs of martyrs Lives in the burning fodder Cauterized and atrophied This is my unbecoming Now I wait This metamorphosis All that is left is the change Selfish fate I think you made me this Under the water I wait Eyes in the dead still water Tried but it pushed back harder Cauterized and atrophied This is my unbecoming Knives in the backs of martyrs Lives in the burning fodder Cauterized and atrophied This is my unbecoming