Positive

Make me, make me sweat til I'm wet, til I'm dry but then wipe this tear from my eye haven't felt this warm in a long time even out in the bright sunshine in lifetime of springtimes I fall into your arms with my heart pumpin' on like a bubblin' dub track like a garlicy hot tonque and lip smack I did some contemplation before we got down to this consecration maybe baby something in you kiss said it was an impetous for me to rethink this If I love you then I better get tested make sure we're protected I walk through the park dressed like a question mark Hark! I hear my memory bark in the back of my brain, makn' me insane... ...like cocaine (chorus) But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? but how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? It dawned on me, it seemed to me this is unusual scenery this red light greenery make me feel kinda dreamery thinkin' how I used to be Arrive at the clinic walk through the front door take a nervous number then I think about it more about all the time that I neglected makin sure that I was protected They took my blood With an anonymous number two weeks waitin' wonderin' I shoulda done this a long time ago a lot of excuses why I couldn't go I know these things and these things I must know 'cause it's better to know than to not know! (chorus) I go home to kick it in my apartment I try to give myself a risk assessment the wait is what can really annoy ya everyday is more paranoya I'm readin' about how it's transmitted some behavior I must admit it who I slept with, who they slept with, who they, who they, who they slept with I think about life and immortality what's the first thing I do if I'm H.I.V have a cry and tell my mother get on the phone and call my past lovers I never thought about infectin' anotha all the times that I said "Hmmm? Don't bother." Was it really all that magic? The times I didn't use a prophalactic Would my whole life have to change? or would my whole life remain the same? sometimes it makes me want to shout! all these things too hard to think about a day to laugh, a day to cry a day to live and a day to die 'til I find out, I may wonder but I'm not gonna live my life six feet under (chorus)