Spontaneous Thoughts

For anybody going through it, I'm going through it Trust me I've been there, but I'm releasing my anger another type of way Don't let them knock you down, you know what you capable of I almost lost my sister twice so you gon' feel my wrath 'Cause if you needed help then all you had to do was ask You said you going through it sorry that you heard me laugh I thought that you was playing now I know you didn't gas ! You got your brothers here don't ever think that you alone I never met my brother dig em up you'll see his bones He at a place where people here wish they could use a phone My mama raising queens she better see you on a throne I looked you in your eyes that's inspiration to be great And that's before you got the masters and left mommy place I'm talking well before the visions that you couldn't escape I'm talking back when we was crying Mom protect your face Okay let's get back to the story they ain't never knew Our ship was sinking but they probably thinking 'bout a cruise I get the chills every time I speak about the truth They put that gun right to your head on Leesville Avenue ! I throw that L up let that represent my pain and block ! The same block that my brother got hit by the truck and dropped The same block for the first time I seen my mama cry The streets was easy it was harder once we got inside Weep weep I hate to see tears in your eyes Pain pain your smile kept it in disguise However I suggest you grab a tissue 'Cause if you try to leave me you know I'm going with you ! I almost lost my sister twice so you gon' feel my wrath 'Cause if you needed help then all you had to do was ask You said you going through it sorry that you heard me laugh I thought that you was playing now I know you didn't gas ! You got your brothers here don't ever think that you alone I never met my brother dig 'em up you'll see his bones He at a place where people here wish they could use a phone My mama raising queens she better see you on a throne Plotting on yourself that's plotting on your wealth And that ain't known to help your mother's health So I left this on your shelf to show you how I felt 'Cause I embrace your pain but hate the pain that you was dealt I got this question in my head and I just wanna know What was your motivation when you chose you had to go ? I got the type of smile that hide the pain I shouldn't show I can't believe my mom and sister tried to overdose ! I'm in my room I locked the door I'm in here suffering I wrote this song and cried 10 times in case you wondering ! I love this pain but yet I think I have to buffer it That's just another way to say I had enough of it ! They tried to help but now I know it ain't no helping me My brother serving seven years he caught a felony My sister crying in her sessions of her therapy But while this breath in me I love you to the death of me ! I almost lost my sister twice so you gon' feel my wrath 'Cause if you needed help then all you had to do was ask You said you going through it sorry that you heard me laugh I thought that you was playing now I know you didn't gas ! You got your brothers here don't ever think that you alone I never met my brother dig em up you'll see his bones He at a place where people here wish they could use a phone My mama raising queens she better see you on a throne I almost lost my sister twice so you gon' feel my wrath 'Cause if you needed help then all you had to do was ask ! You said you going through it sorry that you heard me laugh I thought that you was playing now I know you didn't gas ! You got your brothers here don't ever think that you alone I never met my brother dig 'em up you'll see his bones He at a place where people here wish they could use a phone My mama raising queens she better see you on a throne !