childhood life

St Jose member laying down in that room Looking around damn I'm really out the womb All eyes on me look the baby I'm tryna keep my cool Doc you ain't have to smack me what did I do Gave me a lil love tap now look I'm crying Day one try to sell me lies I ain't buying Not because I had no cash and I couldn't buy it But since day one I knew you people love lying I know I'mma be a star look I'm shining Not a rap star but look I'm rhyming Not a shooting star but I'm flying I'm Maria's son special star don't try it '06 to where we at now? Twenty four? Kobe year God gotta open up doors Turning 18 flip it that's his high sco Can't see ten0 'cause y'all don't keep it that no mo I don't understand because I couldn't stand? Ever since a kid I felt like I was in a jam It's either I work to a T or X out but that's a nice ram Tryna get my flow but I can't I'm muffled with words and emotions Always moving so I'm sick and tired from the motion Going through bumps like acne pass me the lotion Working on my mind and craft invisible potions So you can't see me anymore If you're looking for love it moved next door But no one lives next door Damn, story of my life it hurt me to my core There's a fire use my tears to put it out drop to the floor You all filled me up with lies when I was younger How you don't wanna eat but wanna kill hunger You niggas wanna party if not then slumber If I can take away one thing when I was younger It'll be this Take away the misery, the stress, the pain It's insane when I was ten I thought I was going insane Arguments everyday trauma from words my father will say And if I was to end my life it would've been those days They've gotten better but the pain still resides I wanted all peace but with no peace of mind You're outside looking in on my life tryna tell me it's going to be alright It can't be alright when all wants right Someone gotta hold left to keep the block tight Am I right? If I'm not, don't get tight You all howls call you Dwight call me Mike 'cause I bite And I sting, But that's the last name ringing call on Ali Wait that's me, Wait we talking 'bout my childhood life and what y'all didn't even see Another thing, I would remove from that life is all the stings All the sins that I seen my siblings do in front of me Yeah that's deep, In like '16 what's her name Valerie? On Halleck Street, only one good time like the eggs and the bunnies There's more bad when y'all will get drunk like dummies I hate to put it like that but that's just what my childhood life had seen That's more than one thing But before this song y'all knew nothing But that's fine with me That's why y'all clicked on baby me with the title Tha Ali To hear me What y'all never heard come out of me, before The blessing is y'all are doing better and keep impressing childhood me That's the change that counts Not the change with dead presidents we all know as money