444

444, a collection of ideas, thoughts and observations, selfless emulation initiative An attempt to connect If I gave myself to you, would you accept me Music helped me so much, I do this because I want to help you If I wasn't so fucked up mentally, maybe I could make better music I started having suicidal thoughts when I was eight If you were born in my condition, do you think you could do better I always worry that I'm not good enough I hate that people don't believe in me, but I don't blame them I like the idea of looking at life like a prison sentence You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens Stupidity is respected if it's backed up by courage, meanwhile great ideas are ignored if proposed by cowards I know much about pain, but I don't really know anything about life Catroprtic Tristesse, the biggest weakness and strength of humanities that will never know what someone else is thinking Body dysmorphia ruined my life I'm surprised I haven't made more bad decisions, to be honest I was always in love with fantasy, never too concerned with reality Most people don't want love, they want to be loved Nowadays happiness only comes in short waves of nostalgia Art is prostitution Everything about me feels so performative I honestly don't think that we have made any tangible progress when it comes to mental health awareness Any mental illness that cannot be romanticized is instantly demonized There is still a huge lack of understanding and compassion Why do I feel like I owe it to the world to be miserable Is suicide more tragic when it's a rash decision or a well-planned action Sometimes I need to remind myself that I'm incredibly young Internal cohesion is really important in my creative process Okay, if everyone gets a star, then the star becomes worthless, right Well, if you never get a star, do you become worthless We don't live in a validating world What's so bad about a participation trophy A small, I see you, you know Do you see me Music is my way out I have to work harder than the rest for the same results I understand I love life, but it seems to hate me I want you to accept this as a sign that I'm trying I want to change I want you to see that I want to change I want you to see that change is possible I want you to see me I want to be talented, because no matter who I am as a person, talent cannot be denied I want to be so good at what I do that I cannot be denied I always was and always will be underappreciated I wish my mood was more stable I can be hard to recognize I feel no pride I'm terminal in your mind I have no confidence If people don't hear of my life, I'm making sure that they at least hear of my.. I'm unsure if I was sexually abused or not I have so many memories, but I'm locked out so much that I just can't be sure Sometimes I drink myself to sleep I've been in pain for a long, long time I've been abused in every single way you can imagine I'm unsure if anyone could like me I'm too scared to put myself out there Privilege and kill has always been an object of ridicule I'm not used to being taken serious When I was a kid, all I wanted was to be treated like everyone else I have so much hate for myself that I don't think I could hate another human being Compliments make me way more uncomfortable than insults Don't take criticism from someone you won't take advice from Finding yourself is not a final destination There is always more you There is beauty in letting go I wish individuality was celebrated in society Have you ever considered how much genius we missed out on because of judgment Despite everything, I still believe in myself No, I don't Sometimes dying seems too good to be true The dichotomy of heaven and hell never made sense to me How could you appreciate heaven if you've never seen hell I don't want to be alone I'm just so scared I don't feel like a person I am a genius Sometimes I fantasize about pretty dark things The most impactful things are a mix between irony and honesty You perpetuate negative cycles, yet you expect a positive outcome You know, it's funny I claim to be open-minded, but I fucking hate being outsmarted Love is a game of dominance Young people put too much pressure on themselves Having to be an adult when you're a kid results in being a kid when you're an adult I'm the kind of guy that could accidentally kill someone and not even notice What does that even mean What if you die and nothing changes Whether you want to or not, you have no choice I should hate you instead of hating myself for what you did to me I honestly cannot imagine my future There's no light in my eyes I gave up on myself a long time ago There's nothing Nothing Nothing 444 These lyrics we're generate by AI. they're probably incorrect , make your own judgment Nevertheless if you took time out of your day to read this I love you, help me so I can help you