Darkness

They try to make me see that I'm a self-destruct But I don't want to hear it from the ones I distrust The money might be evil but it's good enough Got everybody looking at me now with disgust I've been holding it all in…somehow I wish I could end this shit…right now It makes me too emotional I just want to let it all go But I've been drained…flushed into darkness I've sunken Spending My impulse Buried but I feel so torn when alone You ever felt so lost I need a damn map for my life right now I don't see no positivity in sight right now And I don't got nobody that's by my side right now You ever felt so crossed I been stabbed in the back had to pull the blade out I don't follow any plans til it's all laid out Bout to switch it up again never mind the safe route I been dealing with myself in my head again Been a struggle just to get up out of bed again All the memories I want to just forget again All the things I gotta do to be a better man, you get it man I remember playing ball on the black top Then it comes to the fall and I'm mad lost Fell too hard gotta get back up And you better trust, when I do that I'm a blast off But I've been drained…flushed into darkness I've sunken Spending My impulse Buried but I feel so torn when alone You ever felt so done Felt so fed up that you wanna run Felt like you just can't do another one Maybe even wishing that you were another one I am there Sick of life and pretending that it's been fair Sick of lying to myself saying friends care I'm like the avatar, the only one who bends air Nobody relates, now I'm ripping out my damn hair Isolation, feeling psycho No vacation, no time bro Got patience, but this time no The gutters getting muddy hope you like the high road You ever felt so low? So low like you're caught up in a chokehold Time to pick it up now and I won't slow down Make way as I'm paving my own road But I've been drained…flushed into darkness I've sunken Spending My impulse Buried but I feel so torn when Alone Left in the darkness Left by the ones that were heartless Now it's got me feeling like garbage Find myself laying on the carpet Left in the darkness Left and it got me feeling heartless Left and I felt like garbage But I'mma get back up regardless Just watch this I've been holding it all in…somehow I wish I could end this shit…right now It makes me too emotional I just want to let it all go But I've been drained…flushed into darkness I've sunken Spending My impulse Buried but I feel so torn when alone