Vertigo

Why do I have to feel so blank, colors left me feeling gray Build it up, build it up now, give it up, give it up oh There's no drink or no remedy, so listen close cause I need to say, yeah Yo, can I get some vibrance up in this silence Maybe just a little boom, snap, clap, then add in a little jab I'll turn it into a bar, now baby this is a rap And lately this is my life, I'm spending the time I have Flipping memories into lyrics and spitting them in the trap, like What's the plan, because I do all I can, work a normal job Then slave away nightly for my fans that don't exist To people living in far away lands Heaven came for them early, i get it, but I can't help but feel this Pain in my chest, I guess it's for the best The better part of me seeking that light my Lord has blessed And I know this is my test, but I can't lay to rest Until the other part of me sees that I'm better off leaving Into a place where I don't have to fight off, tolerance Or pray, hoping someday I'll stand tall I just wanna cast off this armor, I'm built strong And tell my mama we can do this, let's take off, yeah I'm but a sheep to the shepherd's light He knows me like I know my life Father's seed, still I'm on my own path I need to pick up my soul and every woe I left upon this broken road and broken home And no I'm not alone, I hope you know I hope, I hope, I hope, I hope, I hope, you know that Deep down I wanna show you I'm proud, I wanna feel my time here's worth the pain I sing I'll walk this tightrope ignoring all this vertigo, and in the end I hope you know I gave it my everything Deep down I wanna show you I'm proud, I wanna feel my time here's worth the pain I sing I'll walk this tightrope ignoring all this vertigo, and in the end I hope you know I gave it my everything Deep down, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh I'll walk this tightrope ignoring all this vertigo, and in the end I hope you know I gave it my everything