Soldier

Couldn't handle the freedom I had When you left me standing on a beautiful yard Took as much space as I could get I'm a soldier I can drag myself down on a sunny day Mom, don't listen to me when I say "What's the matter to live anyway ?" I'm a soldier How the hell did I become this ? I was by my side 'til I disappeared And now I scare myself to sleep I'm a soldier Thankfully, the music fills the void But it's still not my brother's voice I'm out again, I thought I won I'm a soldier Angriness in my soul, I daydream 'bout cutting them with my chainsaw I'm my parent's daughter, I got mom's temper and my dad's dark glow And I know I'm worth saving But I don't know right now, see what I mean ? There's a fine line, to exist or to live ? I'm a soldier Finding comfort in scenarios Vicariously, I'll find my hero You'll call it "anger", I name it "ego" I'm a soldier I've been here before but I tend to forget Searching in my eyes but the answer's not there I want to go home even though I won't stay I'm soldier Can't stand the wait anymore I'm stuck in this pain, feeling bored I'll build it myself that fucking door I'm a winner