If I Die Before I Wake

Now I lay me down to sleep, I prayed the lord my soul to keep If I should die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take Sold my soul to the devil, I don't think I can help it What soul? Exactly, I think the devil was selfish Didn't even make a deal, all he did was take it Wanna be like Ricky Bobby, shake and bake it Talladega, the nights are so lonely, can't even wake up without losing a homie Moved to a new place, the streets don't know me, but I swear they will at any given time As soon as I drop this next rhyme, it's like I'm driven by the thought of me crossing the finish line I'm slipping and stumbling, my stomach is ripping and rumbling My final straw is cut short while I'm sitting in the ambulance All because of the pills I was swallowing It's as if I can hear the voice of my guardian angel and she was calling me But in reality it was my ma's voice and she was saying, get up, come on you got a choice I tried my hardest but didn't even budge To be completely honest, I didn't give a fuck No going back to poverty, cause that shit really sucked While they're trying to revive me, doing their sternum rubs And I just kept on repeating to myself, saying Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep If I should die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take I could hear my siblings crying and laying on my chest Then the machines flatlined and suddenly a breath escaped me As I was resting in the bed, almost as if I was ready for death Until a switch flipped up in my head I started to shake, the withdrawals were starting to take my fucking life away I told my demons to lay me in my father's grave Then I began to wake and I saw them crowded around me It wasn't my demons, it was my fucking family They gave me a smile and said that they were glad that I'm alive I told them from this day forward I could never die But I knew it was false and it happened again Then my family switched up on me and so did my friends But the real ones stayed close, which is why I chose speed it up a little bit To give up on the drugs that were killing me slow Seriously though, I'm starting a new chapter so I flipped a page And wrote down my feelings that led to this stage of the pain and rage Locked in a cage in my brain, I need to let it all out before it drains me So in this moment I'm freezing frozen like I slashed my own wrist And I'm soaked in my blood, no glove, no love That's why I stay protected. Damn, okay, I'm done Now I lay me down to sleep I pray to Lord my soul to keep If I should die before I wake I pray to Lord my soul to take Now I lay me down to sleep I pray to Lord my soul to keep If I should die before I wake I pray to Lord my soul to take If I die before I wake, lay me in my father's grave No, my soul cannot be claimed I speak to my demons, I guess they're tamed Like an unborn fetus when it's flushed down the drain After you ask it if it can hang Like damn, this beat was slayed Okay