i almost ended your life.

No I don't need forgiveness I almost ended your life, please, no more guesses I'm restless, I'm reckless Don't put me as captain, it's all goin' manic Don't put me in charge; everyone's gonna panic I always lose; I'm like the old Spanish Our empire will fall and end up in ashes Killin' myself won't stop my own actions I'm really just nothing; I'm just a distraction What I could be, I'm only a fraction Minecraft, dark inside like I'm a bastion Didn't show up; now I've been banished What a poor girl, showed up with slashes Been doin' that too, poison ivy rashes Hit by a car, we're in dangerous- (traffic) Trafficked, they're laughin' These cuts, they never halfin' They say that I'm a has-been They say that I'm an addict They say I got no courage to go out and be laughin' Have no directions on this windy road I'm travelin' Numbers are low, makin' me mad I get that the industry is hard for all to have Thought I'd have a fan, but nah, I'm just bad Stuck in a limbo of always just sad Stuck in a limbo of self-harming instead They say that I'm worthless to go out and rest I'm escaping the pain they causin' the rest I'm escaping the pain they causin' in wrecks My health is in shambles, do you need an example? I'm stuck in a state of always just gamble Now i got no one, I can never just grapple Eat me alive, but now they aint cannibal Used to have friends, screwed me over now I'm cynnical Now I'm just coping with rhyming and syllables Going on tour is the point I'm unkillable Until then everything aint hard to lose Tying a noose, tryin' to move Slipped off' my neck like it is too loose Cannot fly high like there's nothing to lose Stuck on the ground, I will never be used Always be used, this battle I'm glued Rattle my bones, like, this is too rude Repeat everything, but it's makin' me lose