last words

Introvert I usually hate conversations But this was the happiest I've felt with a soul since a couple ages Feelings like no other woke the love from hibernation A hopeless realization when it slowly starts fading Got what you needed out of me and withdrew Months gone by how im still stuck making sad tunes Had ya flaws but I was down to love you harder I had mine but shit didn't wanna stick around much longer Sometimes wanna hit you up and ask how you've been Then I remember sit back and think about what you did I'm left confused Wanted to write aggressive But it's not what's in my heart Id rather grow and show progression Its gone be a while till I forget ya Effects after you find a girl that love ya and caress ya Even if it was one sided Ive pictured how it could of been though It's a shame didn't get to love you to my fullest potential Said you liked to read I didn't but made a library visit You liked smokin weed Took the fumes in even if my asthma would kick in Drive you wherever Still don't care I ran up the mileage Loved staying with you late nights By morning on Camano Island We all wish it works out but doesn't always go our way That's just how the story's written just gotta flip the page Gotta keep it pushing keep living life day by day In the end it's gone work out we gon be okay I thought the nail in the coffin was when you unfollowed me But really it was that last message you sent that shit was hard to read Made me think about everything differently shit was pure rage Had me connecting some dots like a kid in the 1st grade Generated 13 pluses from a negative Had to go and squeeze out all the juice that that'd lemon give Was used to being lonely never really gave a fuck If theres one thing that you showed me it's that solitary sucks Looking back at the holidays we could of had but missed Halloween got no sugar only ended up getting tricked Stuffing a bitch for thanksgiving only helps for a lil bit Christmas felt colder had a bottle for my new years kiss You needed an umbrella Mine was a only fit one kind I gave it to you but someone gave you his that fit both of you guys Left me out in the rain Got soaked still waiting to dry Like how it was back in the day Alone we back on some loneliness vibes Went in looking for love Came out learning a lesson I see why we become heartless tried to build something then they wreck it I see why our views change when we take the hit from their intentions Its easy to give in so let me switch up the perspective I hope he takes you roses the ones I had would shrivel dry I hope he takes you star gazing I tried but the clouds filled the night It wasn't meant to be and that's okay I understand it now it just hurts to see you move on while I learn detachment now Met you at your lowest Won't see you at your highest Breaks my heart knowing I wont wipe the tears when you crying Breaks my heart knowing I won't be there to say keep fighting Breaks my heart knowing I won't be there to you see you shining I stopped thinking about me and put myself in your shoes Life hit you hard now I see why you cope the way you do I think if you ever came back I'd probably leave all of this in the past Use the knife that you put in my back to cut you a cake for your 20th you ain't had But I think I gotta stop waiting 'Cause I know this is for the best Don't understand the reason but in the end it'll all make sense Nothing but a memory Reading the same book won't change the ending No longer written for me Gotta move on and continue the story I know I said this an album But it's more like confessions The end is here so it's time we learn acceptance The wound will heal up but the scar remains forever A reminder not to mess with love and if you do to be careful I won't forget but I forgive ya I won't forget but I forgive ya I won't forget but I forgive ya I hope you can forgive me too