Explorer

Yesterday is history Wont let it haunt my memories I baggem up and drop thrm on The street Dont doubt cause soon youll See These l's take hammers to my Head try to Nail me to a tree They couldnt take this energy Replaced i cant with i believe In myself Yeah I do me For my health Not with a hope that you feel A certain way And rebel I used to think i would fail I use to feel less compelled To be me pretend i was happy To be Someone else Took some time i think i gEt it Now Im the only threat To myself i hate it but we all Have our Moments when our Lifes a wreck Im in the attic clearing out the Boxes piles its a mess Sometimes i wish i hadnt Checked To clean it up But im obsessed With neat and tidy I like to make my place a home So it can Feel Inviting Though when i ask no one will Come Except the doubts their lining Up Were Here their standing In the front I open up but keep it blunt Not adding clutter or more Junk I'm working for quarters TherapY was nice but can't Afford it I'm out here with this trauma Like will you let me take your ORder The face of the company Why they know I will cross the Borders Been here before many times I'm know around as the Explorer Can never break me down Im kneeling down just chilling By a corner Sorting out the feelings trynna Understand me get some prder Inside my Temple i think i Think too much call me a Hoarder these yhoughts i call a Disorder They linger around Me they loiter Tomorrows never promised Thats why im headed down This road Ive got a fever im not sick but Think my Heart has caught a Cold Im near these people theyre Disappointed In me but they Dont know Theres always judges at these Shows I walk on stage like here we go We now present Im todays contestant Do i mumble rap Or leave them stunned Asking questions Like whered you come from Lettem gasp I spit some lines the beat is Bumpin Its my time to teach the class Some taking notes some not Impressed And thats okay im not the best Addicted like an addict To this rap im all about it Im gunna cause more problems Because I have formed a Habit My drive is manual ill never Drive an Automatic Not getting comfortable im Anxious Honeslty i may be manic Or maybe I may just panic I work on me fixed my drive Now thats Why im called a Mechanic Ive been wrapped up in a Bandage From fighting this battle howd I end up on This end I'm stranded Its been a challenge but im Here to learn How to heal the Damage I'm working for quarters TherapY was nice but can't Afford it I'm out here with this trauma Like will you let me take your ORder The face of the company Why they know I will cross the Borders Been here before many times I'm know around as the Explorer Can never break me down Im kneeling down just chilling By a corner Sorting out the feelings trynna Understand me get some prder Inside my Temple i think i Think too much call me a Hoarder these yhoughts i call a Disorxer I Learned I'm MY OWN own supporter I was there tryin to figure out Who i was And i what i Wanted Its been a journy but ill keep Going if i feel Exhausted Theres no stopping me from Rapping on These topics its a process I love this more than anything i Responded I'm Still working for quarters TherapY was nice but can't Afford it I'm out here with this trauma Like will you let me take your ORder The face of the company Why they know I will cross the Borders Been here before many times I'm know around as the Explorer