Better

I gotta admit, yeah, life's better than I thought it'd be I'm a lot less deader than I thought I'd be Spent way more money than I thought I'd see Lackin' empathy, but that's just how I gotta be It dont feel as good when people say they proud of me Lotta goals in my life that I gotta reach Lotta poles that I hope that I don't gotta reach World cold, pull this heat then you gotta freeze Yeah, I do this for my family Thank the ones in my life that lent a hand to me People I grew up with turned to junkies, yeah, it's sad to see I'm just livin' now, really, I'm just glad to be Smokin' heavy, yeah, a quarter like a gram to me Friday, make a thousand, and that bitch gone by Saturday Life used to suck, now it really ain't that bad to me Cycle that we get in gotta pedal, but it's hard to brake(break) I see risks, but they hard to take Filled promises that were hard to make Can't just think about myself, cause I got mouths to feed Work and family only thing that's keepin' me awake Yeah, I took what I had to take Broke promises that I had to break I be thinkin' bout the money just surroundin' me Wonder what I gotta do to get away Get away from this place that I made In my mind, it's a shame that I lied to myself All the time And I tried to divide how I felt as a child But the fear that I had lives deep down inside Thin line between keeping your life, and your pride When that bullet leave the chamber, ain't much time to decide When that plane leave the hangar, ain't much time till you fly When you born into life, ain't much time till You die So you gotta live it Money ain't gon' make itself, so I gotta get it I been stayin' to myself, that's how I always been And every time I say it how I feel, then there's a problem with it But really, that's the problem with me I don't even wanna say that things thats botherin' me But now I'm tryna reach some heights that's taller than me When I finally make it to the top, I'm bringin' all em with me Same ones that was starvin', gon' be ballin' with me And the same ones that was hatin', gon' be cryin' bout it And the same ones that was lyin', gon' keep lyin' bout it Really, they ain't never see the truth without a lie around it I know that I'm the shit, but that won't fly around me Yeah, I know I caused some tears, but please don't cry around me Suffered losses through the years, but then I got around it Now I keep an iron on my body like I'm Robert Downey I was longin' for some love, then I thought I found it If love's cheap, then the trust you get is discounted Water's deep, I can feel the pressure build around me I can see the light peekin' even when my mind is clouded