let's get this over with

Yea Do remember when we first first first first met Kiss touch flirt and gave me head Text eachother til we went to bed Woke up and we textin more again Askin bout my music and my plans I picked you up and held you in my hands Played it cool but told you in advance That I ain't lookin for another friend No I want you all to myself I even went and told my mom about ya Even went and wrote a song about ya Even made you a poster with pictures of both us cuz I couldn't go to my prom without ya And you said yes And you said yes I like this I like this I like this I cant lie I like this I like this I like this I cant lie No I cant lie I cant lie No I cant lie No I made you mine by the start of may Just feelings, no playin games Fast forward like 20 days And we're in my backseat celebrating Find your eyes you were hesitating Forming words but you said it plainly... "I love you" That statement forever changed me And then I I told you about how my parents split I told you all about my own shit I opened up like "I don't give a fuck" But it meant the world when you owned it I struggled for so so long And you're the only one that knows it I thank you for your open heart I'm still thankful to this very moment Yeah Then summer came and I went away When I got back it's like nothing changed Saw you for a week, didn't skip a day Let's skip a month Working weekends I got dates to fund Lets hit the city, did it more than once Girl you get me high no facing blunts But you by my side look what we become On standby til you opened up Once you did I gave you all my love It's not my place to say what you've faced But you're so brave and I hope you know I'm so proud of you Yea I'm so proud of you Life kept moving with you by my side But that sparkle in your eyes I could tell part of it died I hated every moment you would look at other guys But realized it wasn't healthy to control so I tried But we just lead different lives School year start and I would worry and act jaded Fakin all tough but I was actually mad anxious And everytime I showed it I felt shame its Not healthy to feel that way its Not healthy to make you change But I did that shit anyways And I'm sorry the way it played I'm sorry October came around, I made the basket that you wanted Shoes, mugs, candles, and a flannel from target You got me a basket too, I could tell it's from the heart it's Truely nice to see how you supported me as an artist My granny passed that month, you were there with me through the hardest But later that same week the worst fight we've had got started About some clown that's tryna come to your party And you had no self respect in the way you responded It's deeper than that, but not as deep as I made it I drove you home and told you that we should take a break and trace back mistakes we were makin You cried in my arms and your father saw your voice shaking I turned off my phone and hit the studio until the next day and by then the situation had elevated Never the less, we were back to loving like a week later But resentment had gotten through There's gaps between me and you And we're back doing nothing new Fighting bout the same things we always do But resentment had gotten through There's gaps between me and you And we're back doing nothing new Fighting bout the same things we always do But resentment had gotten through There's gaps between me and you And we're back doing nothing new Fighting bout the same things we always do And in hindsight In hindsight look I wasn't comfortable with who I was I depended on you for love And couldn't believe your trust I almost left you more than once For reasons that were just dumb I hate the partner I've become I set high standards for you But my standards for me wasn't enough Like fuck am I doing talkin bout your outfits like I should even have a say I just saw you blossom and was worried you about you not wanting to stay Like the beautiful flower you became Would get blown with the wind and drift away Life works in funny ways Because at the end of the day That's exactly what happened but it was me who was the wind Faithful I'm healing I'm healing from your love I'm healing I'm healing from your love You broke up with me over text the week of my finals I made a whole 10 songs for you and had it put onto vinyl It was the nicest thing ive done for anyone in my life ever But like weather, fallin in love is a vicious cycle You won't ever get to hear some of those tracks I made for you Some are on this record but the deep cuts gon stay in the vault forever Damn You made me cry in front of my momma That won't happen again tho You're both angels but she actually knows how to be gentle I asked for a phone call, and you said just send it over text Guess what happened next 3 days passed and you just couldn't stand neglect So youre out with a guy, tryna replace my attention With a ginger kid so skinny ribs are showing through his shitty fit Okay his style is decent but I was best dressed I saw him the next day when I was out with a friend I hope he ain't relay it as something that wasn't true I would never rebound first month, I have too much respect for you I'm healing I'm healing from your love I'm healing I'm healing from your love I went on my first first date in a long long time But it ain't you across that table from me It ain't you that talkin crazy honey It ain't you that's gonna say you love me It ain't you that's getting all touchy Kissing sloppy, all on top me, Tryna undress, but I don't need another body so I confess that im seeing somebody when really I'm not I'm faithful to no one But no one don't want me And no one despise me And no one wouldn't give a fuck if I was dying I know cuz I tried Sent a text to your line But no one was busy She was checkin her eyes Like there's nothing to see in me Please have some decency Easily one of the easiest reasons To be with me Is the same reason you ended up leaving me I love too hard But it's not just love My love was insecure Partially immature And rarely ever pure I now see the inherent flaws within myself The same flaws that withered away the sparkle in your eye The same flaws that made me just another guy And the same flaws that made you look at me and decide you wouldn't want me in your life I'm healing I'm healing from your love I'm healing I'm healing from your love You're probably dancing with him to a song that I wrote I turned off the tv put down the remote Cuz checkin up on you what hurt me the most I don't mean to brag or boast But my life's been lookin up ever since you went ghost I know some of these verses sound salty But I've come to terms with our parting The thought of you being happy is calming Even if its with a new prince charming I respect you beyond belief, you're the strongest woman I know I thank you for breaking up with me, it was an opportunity to grow I love your family too, they were never nothing but wonderful On nights where my house wasn't home yall made me feel comfortable, thank you All of this goes to say If I could relive this past year I would do it all the same You can use me as an excuse, I'll take all of the blame I'm admitting to my wrongs with the hope that you're okay I want to see your prosper, I gave you so much of my life I know we're not together but I would never live in spite Never give in twice I'm still here for you on any given night I'm forgiven right? Even if not I'm still livin right All this to say Despite all adversity I really want you to know That your numbers never blocked inside of my phone So if anyone lays hands on you or even comes close I don't care if I'm across the globe or just down the road Give me a call and I'll do anything take this as an oath Take this as an oath Thank you