I Wish It Meant Never

I'm reaching out, I got my hand on a rail I'm slipping out, memories playing one by one I'm fucking lost, holding onto my guilt Feeling fine, I'm overdosing, tripping out of line I suffer from the same pain Did you a find a new mistake, from my list of fuck ups I know you know I'm the number one The only one alone, forever I wish it meant never I'm wishing for the best My days are lesser, drugs will make it better Give me one more One more time One more time to feel what it would've been in my past Passed down Lasting longer under what could've been my curse I'm worsening, I never felt so cheap And I never felt so empty, sitting in the chair My brain is shocked, body locked, is it not enough Enough Praying that my day will come back Praying for another step Praying for another rest, knowing I don't wanna bet that Moving right, moving to my next life Where the words at, taking laps, passing loud Couldn't care less for the death that I left Add a problem to another mess Are you really gonna understand me? I don't wanna know when I'm wrong But I'm never calm around anyone else but you Anyone else I took it from, I really need to know what's taking long Getting hung up every day, way too long I'm picking who to call, nevermind now I might Nothing fitting my type, but it's alright It's alright What's there to miss? Misery and agony I heard that shit, I said fuck a list Why do I keep track of what I should know? I don't know, I don't know Why the fuck do I keep track of what I should know I'm all alone, all alone Alone, alone Yeah I'm all alone