The Italian goodbye

I pick up the trash And throw it away The weekend Was long And more Lonely each day But at least The rooms not spinning Like the flys Above the kitchen sink I hold my breath For someone To get close And when no ones Comes I dig up the bones Of a life that I've been living In the clouded world Of ignored feelings Today may be the day My worries disappear for good Today may be the day I feel loved understood Today may be the day My worries disappear for good Today may be the day I feel loved understood You smiled to my face And stabbed me in the back If i ended up dead Youd throw my body in the trash Im a ragdoll that You used as you pleased But now im in your closet Cause you have no use for me Would you love me more And treat me better If i ate caviar And slept in leather Should i still hold on To the way things were Even though with you Im just a bunch of slurs Slurring my words Tryna drown in a beer With a knife in my back And a bullet in my rear I took the blade out And gave it a try Till ol' stabby found its place Lodged in your left eye I DONT WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS ANY LONGER Following my gut Has me chained to the bottom Of a sea That's diseased From the blue and green Algae Stealing my breath And giving punishment For pouting Ima take Earth And stuff it in a pipe Light it With a blow torch And ash it on a mic Ima fuck god Till he bleeding Every night Tear his ass up And beat him Till he dies Today may be the day My worries disappear for good Today may be the day I feel loved understood Today may be the day My worries disappear for good Today may be the day I feel loved understood Today may be the day My worries disappear for good Today may be the day I feel loved understood