it's the last one, i promise

I keep trying to be better but without any luck I keep trying to watch my words but I'm stuck I want to do the right thing for once you know But when I say I wanna go, I wanna go You say you want to help me, you wanna save me But what about me do you think you can't see? I'm not good at hiding and holding it all in The savior saves in scripture, all serpents sin So much I'm slipping and sinning in the blood of the whore I'm drinking and praying and moaning for the Lord I know I'm coming, I'm going to come twice All in the name, in the name of the Christ My time has come and I'm awaiting the sign I'm alone trying to convince me I'm fine I chose this for me to protect me from you I keep hoping I'm going to wake up brand new No matter what the devil stays inside Even when I beg him to commit suicide He shakes the dice and tries for a six Mother fucker got me out here turning tricks My eyes are closing and I'm seeing red I know what you told me, I know what you said But they're all lies and I'm used to the liar I know you're standing too close to the fire But I've begged you to take one step back I can't breathe in the fucking panic attack I can't breathe out but I know you don't care I know I'm gone in the infinite stare The lows are low in my depression But when I'm manic you're my obsession Is not easy to be right in the unethical position Buy I've started and I'm fulfilling the mission Oh fuck I should've stopped but I've got these two I'll always go beyond the limits just to impress you I keep trying to be better but without any luck I keep trying to watch my words but I'm stuck I want to do the right thing for once you know But when I say I wanna go, I wanna go You say you want to help me, you wanna save me But what about me do you think you can't see? I'm not good at hiding and holding it all in The savior saves in scripture, all serpents sin So much I'm slipping and sinning in the blood of the whore I'm drinking and praying and moaning for the Lord I know I'm coming, I'm going to come twice All in the name, in the name of the Christ I keep trying to be better but without any luck I keep trying to watch my words but I'm stuck I want to do the right thing for once you know But when I say I wanna go, I wanna go You say you want to help me, you wanna save me But what about me do you think you can't see? I'm not good at hiding and holding it all in The savior saves in scripture, all serpents sin So much I'm slipping and sinning in the blood of the whore I'm drinking and praying and moaning for the Lord I know I'm coming, I'm going to come twice All in the name, in the name of the Christ I keep trying to be better but without any luck I keep trying to watch my words but I'm stuck I want to do the right thing for once you know But when I say I wanna go, I wanna go You say you want to help me, you wanna save me But what about me do you think you can't see? I'm not good at hiding and holding it all in The savior saves in scripture, all serpents sin So much I'm slipping and sinning in the blood of the whore I'm drinking and praying and moaning for the Lord I know I'm coming, I'm going to come twice All in the name, in the name of the Christ