Brotherly Love

21st holla at us! Ain't been the same since my brother passed Ain't been the same since my brother passed Never knew something could hurt this bad Crazy to think that twenty years with you is all I'd have Time flew by fast, I'd rewind if I could If I could look God in the face and ask him why then I would I just knew that you were lying when you said you were good I know you only did it cause I worry more than I should I just wish my prayers would've made this outcome different Because I've never had a plan for life without you in it So I'll be chilling at the house, expecting you to come home I'll never come around to accepting the fact that you're gone Boy I miss you, I'll never stop shedding these tears for ya What hurts me the most, is knowing I won't hear from ya I can't give up, I gotta grind and live for ya In your absence, I'll step up and hold it down here for ya (Hold it down!) But you know what really hurts my heart? Your wedding was in August, but you didn't make it to March I was one of your best men Eager to see you start a life with the woman of your dreams til death did y'all apart I remember getting the call that changed my life My grandmother hit my phone, told me come to Forsyth I asked her what was wrong, she burst into tears on the phone Then she told me that they didn't think you'd live through the night I screamed as loud as I could, looked to the sky for some answers Lost my grandmother, now my brother, mother fuck cancer! Might not have went to his room had I had known that He was already gone, his eyes had already rolled back It was at that moment, I bolted straight out the room Mom had said she'd take him off that ventilator at noon I really thought I was dreaming, hoping I'd wake up soon Lord why you have to take my bruh away so soon? (Lord why?!) I needed him here, all I did was pray, but now I wonder how much of it did you hear? Because I feel like if you heard me, then he would've been healed So you'll have to forgive me if I don't know how to feel Time just keeps on passing This shit'll never seem real The longer my brother's gone, the pain I'm feeling gets worse I wonder why it's the good ones that must get took from us first And then we're left with the bad, this shit's in need of reverse I wish I would've got the chance to see and speak to him first Miss his presence, and the jokes, chopping shit while we would roast When you lose somebody, it's the little shit you miss the most Here's a toast, not a drinker but I'll pour one for my bro He kept it on the up and up until that nigga went below And then ascended to heaven, the time we spent was a blessing I know that I'll be successful long as you guide where I'm stepping Wish I could live in the past, don't really fuck with the present This music shit therapeutic, it ease my mind when I'm stressing (It ease my mind!) See I done learned some lessons, that shook me to the bone (To the bone!) Cherish people while they're here, they can't hear you when they're gone Know that I won't get an answer when I call my brother's phone But I still do it! Just hoping one day I'll be wrong Cause I'd really give my last just for one more conversation (Uh-huh) I felt like giving up, you'd kick my ass for contemplating So I grind, speak my mind, put my heart into these lines I'm gone shine, but I know that everything ain't on my time (On my time!) See, I'm already one of the best to do it (Facts) Loss after loss after loss, I really been going through it (Going through it) But adversity will not define me nigga (Nah) My will to overcome strong, need I remind you niggas? (Need I remind you) Bro told me don't focus on getting the numbers up (Uh-huh) The realest people gone love the shit that you spitting bruh (They gone love it) You change the game with your lyrics, don't let it change you up Cause nobody can tell your story the way that you tell it bruh (Nobody) That's one of the reasons why I'm gone miss him (Why I'm gone miss him) He was always instilling me with his wisdom (With his wisdom) He made me a better man and a musician Any time I wrote a song, he'd be the first one to listen (First one to listen) Or when I was drumming, he'd help me clean up my sticking I promise I'll make the line when it's time to go back to Winston From C5 to the O, chopping everywhere I go Hate that I don't have the footage chopping shit up with you bro (With you bro) Those fond memories of you will never fade (Never fade) I push forward, remembering better days (Better days) Lord knows I'm hurting in several ways (Several ways) You would still be here, if it mattered how hard I prayed (Hard I prayed) I wish I knew a better way that I could feel (That I could feel) All I know is that there's wounds that time could never heal (Never heal) I'll never accept what happened In search of some understanding I manage to make the most out of time that I am granted In spite of my circumstances, I'm standing strong in my stances The stance is not to give up when life doesn't go how you plan it Pick yourself up, lick your wounds, and establish some winning habits Utilize your time today, cause tomorrow ya might not have it Everything's within my means, if I want it, then I'm gone have it Move in silence so these niggas won't ever know what you're planning (Shh!) My pride would never allow me to back away from a challenge My brother had always said I could go a ways with my talent (With my talent) But sustaining success takes a lot more than that (Takes more) I have the drive for it all, there's no ignoring that (No ignoring it) Guess you could say I'm bred different from these other cats I wish that me succeeding would mean that I'd get my brother back (I'd get my brother back) Ain't been the same since my brother passed Ain't been the same since my brother passed Never knew something could hurt this bad Crazy to think that twenty years with you is all I'd have (All I'd have!)