Rock Bottom

I need someone to lie to me Lie to me I need someone to lie to me It's better than being lonely Said even the girl in my dreams doesn't see me I'd rather pick up the liquor than the phone cause it's easy Tryna manifest love, another night comes I lay my head down to rest knowing I'll get none And you can swear mums that you're gonna stay, but I know that you'll leave me Caffeine, nicotine in my bloodstream Wake up every day I'm thinking "What the fuck is wrong with me?" How I deal with my trauma is some hypocrisy Tell 'em all to be positive with vices right on top of me Six drinks deep, I'm well acquainted with rock bottom Sin's sickly, my fate looks like Gomorrah and Sodom Less grief please, I'm over visions of my people bodies Need relief ASAP, I feel like Rocky with all these fuckin' problems Even the girl in my dreams doesn't see me I'd rather pick up the liquor than the phone cause it's easy Tryna manifest love, another night comes I lay my head down to rest knowing I'll get none And you can swear mums that you're gonna stay, but I know that you'll leave me Uh, dramatise my life and make it serial Ethereal places up in my dome so I'm not here at all Hearing everything outside, but it's an inner war So I hit the booze and then I always end up craving more More tension, no fixing attention deficit More stretch in my spirit, I made a wreck of it What the higher self saying? I can't make it out Gun held to my own soul, I'm 'bout to take it out Even the girl in my dreams doesn't see me I'd rather pick up the liquor than the phone cause it's easy Tryna manifest love, another night comes I lay my head down to rest knowing I'll get none And you can swear mums that you're gonna stay, but I know that you'll leave me This void feels like home A place to rest my bones Strange comfort I know Rest my weary soul I won't sleep easy though, and Strange comforts are all I know