stay by myself

I dont really talk about it cuz ain't nothing to talk about Can't say I'm lost without you, all I did was lost a partner But that done happened too many times, fuck do I look like falling behind? I done been through all of these tries of figuring out what the fuck is mine I done heard that I don't deserve nothing Don't get what I prefer, what if? Stop bitching bout all the shit that's happening and wait for your fucking turn,brother Still ain't nothing going on They don't even fucking hear my songs Took a different path, don't know right or wrong It goes on and on So I'mma stay by myself Yea I'mma stay by myself Yea I'm gonna stay by myself Just gonna stay by myself Yea I'mma stay by myself Just gonna stay by myself Just gonna stay by myself Yea just gonna stay by myself (No) You gon slide? (No) You gon ride? (No) Ride or die? (No) Who you find? (No one, no one) Really? No one? Boy you fuckin trippin, get the fuck out your emotions Yea, tryna convince myself ain't nothing wrong with being broken Every night I be toking, even when I'm grounded bitch I stay floating Makes me so mad, seeing everybody fucking winning when I'm not Keep moving with the waves, need to define where I mark my spot But who the hell's gonna be proud? Did they ever fucking reach out? No, well fuck you too then bitch In my way, you can move then bitch I could never fucking lose lil bitch Never really needed you lil bitch Hit my line, bitch who is this? I don't know, cuz I been incredible Gotta climb higher just to reach my pedestal Always gonna tell you that I'm better than you You and pussy looking real identical, yo See me trying to be so relatable but I be tired of just always faking bro Still hating but I don't be saying nothing, I'mma just make it home So I'mma stay by myself Yea I'mma stay by myself Yea I'm gonna stay by myself Just gonna stay by myself Yea I'mma stay by myself Just gonna stay by myself Just gonna stay by myself Yea just gonna stay by myself I keep hearing all this advice goddamn near everywhere that I look They keep telling me to be happy and do what nobody else could They say my life is my life as much as it is their life and they're right and I try but I never seem to just feel fine It's hard doing so much, expectations gotta keep up Always holding shit over my head thinking I won't ever do enough Bitch I made my fucking self and I ain't ever need your help No one care about what you care about, you ain't never left your shell I ain't been that much of a fighter but I can take it there if you test me Ask anybody that text me, know that shit could always get messy But I ain't here to make threats, y'all go right, I'm tryna go left Is it so crazy that I'm hating all the time I spend behind desks? They keep telling me that it's my life and I could do whatever I want But all I really wanna do is have some fucking fun And increase my fucking funds to the point where y'all be stunned And all this fake friendly shit is done so I don't gotta answer to no one I don't really think about all the consequences to my actions Trigger points in the hidden noise and I start getting distracted Can't turn into a disaster, bitch I am the fucking master I need me in your memories in this life and way after Cuz I am so impactful, might need to build me a statue They say you gotta earn it to deserve it, but y'all be doing it backwards See I'm tryna gain some traction, but I still feel like I'm lacking Cuz I can't ever seem to find the time to focus on my passions It's like life is just stuck in this boring ass little loop Where you can't piss nobody off, or else you gonna get screwed Always gotta play by the rules, always gotta pay your fucking dues Always gonna be someone that gonna hold that power over you So what more can I do? Except be aware that life is so cruel And just keep grinding til I got the ability to choose my next moves Ye said "Shoot for the moon", P said "I could do it too" So I guess believing in myself is really all I gotta do Keep betting on me, don't give a fuck about what y'all say Just wait until I tell em "run my money up, bitch I hit my parlay" Every single year I say the same thing, but I don't see much changing I could talk all I want but I ain't doin it like they did What's hard work, when every single effort that you've made gets torn up? I guess I'll never find out if I keep taking all of these shortcuts Got everybody telling me "You so good man, you going up!" But what's the point in getting all this praise when nothing good really shows up? Can't break out of this cycle man, can't break out of this cycle man I really wish that I could fucking break out of this cycle man Can't get nowhere significant if I just keep being broke But work just be distracting me from actual self growth Feel like nobody I know's motivated to be unique Cuz they'd rather see that direct deposit hitting every two weeks Man imagine if we was free to do whatever we please Man I'm tryna get to that level but I just keep getting beat Cuz y'all aint show no love, give me no credit, you could fuck me over in any second I been tryna get rid of all this negativity, but y'all won't let me cuz Everybody on that same shit, man I don't see no one changing That's why I keep going to different places so I could find the right placements But maybe it's just me and I can't get along with people that well And maybe I'm just delusional and I don't really have that skill Or maybe it's just them tryna take advantage of the fact that I'm chill Or maybe they just have some lil problem with me that they won't tell But honestly man I don't really know And I don't even wanna find the answers anymore I know people gon be people and I hope they treat me well but if they don't then I can't do nothing about it except say farewell So I'mma just keep doing me man ain't nothing wrong with being myself I done made it up to this point and still got much more to tell I know my story isn't done, I know my life has just begun So let me you one last time muthafucka, I'm the chosen one lil bitch