Pops (R.I.P.)

[Intro] Rest in peace, Pops cin't a day go by where I don't think about him Check [Verse] Having dreams of that old apartment number Seein' my pops and then I start to wonder If I ain't seen his face at 3 a.m., if I could find some slumber Man, depression from this grief, it got me goin' under The fact my homie saw him go then denyin' me comfort I lost the man who took me through all the rain and the thunder Why you had to go?; I swear to God that I wish he was younger The same weekend that he went, I was doin' a show I came back to touch your body and feel it was cold I told him not to drink and swear that he never would fold I guess that this is just the way that the realest will go Now I'm just thinkin' like, damn, when am I next? cnd I can't believe in God 'cause I'm not like the rest There's a guy in the sky ripped the heart out my chest 'Cause right now life sucks and I'm livin' in vexed What's the point of spending life half down on your knees? When eventually, we see black, ain't no cdam and Eve If there's a guy up there, please show your existence Maybe you already have with the stars in the distance I don't know, I'm here to get the cream and remain persistent Let me just leave it alone and I'll play my position Which is supply music and show my ambition Which is never flex statistics and throw it in writtens So it's fuck everybody and fuck your opinion 'Cause I recognize real, not these dudes in they feelings Ever since Thick Niggas, my pockets been heavy Now I supply my family with profit and Chevys Got my dad tellin' me, "Thank you, you always impress me" But I'm still distant with Mom's, it continues to stress me These just these little thoughts I have while I'm gone off the Henny Love is in short supply and, no, I ain't handin' out any My pops just had his last breath of life Just down the street from my home I'm still trippin' that he got to see me get on It's crazy how this world can get, people can take it from you I've learned to cherish times until they ain't in front you Chuggin' forties back to back Got my head havin' a heart attack Sick of the thought of Heaven, knowin' we only see black When it was time for God to save my friend, he took a step back Well, that's fake, and so is his existence for that But if you do exist, then why do you choose this? My life a movie, you make me put it into my music How long until I say, "Fuck it and screw this"? Kick the bucket and do it Let's just end the confusion I'm just stuck in my ways so what's the point of improvement? cnd from my point of view, I just don't see no amusement In this shit called life, quick to slice your back like a steel knife Gettin' crossed by my homies that I thought was real tight Shorty feelin' real nice Down farther, all of my relationships The same ones who showing me love are those I'm impatient with Feels like I got the world on my back now cnd ever since he passed, I'll never back down Never lettin' the gas down Now when I'm writin' songs, he's in the background Peepin' a young lyricist class clown Death been makin' me bitter Gotta relax by stuffin' a Swisher Tryna see the bigger picture Vietnam was makin' 'em shiver Government always make it hard for a nigga Tragic death got me with bars for a nigga Everyday, I wish for my pops back Remember sittin' at jaw jack Regrettin' every single time I ever talked back Callin' his phone knowin' he won't call back Remember gettin' kicked out of the house and usin' his crib to fall back Is life really all that? Well, now I really don't know He for damn sure got me focused on my goals I feel him in my soul He always used to teach me with his soul One day, I'll understand him when I'm old [Instrumental Outro]