A Letter To Him ([ beat by ' desirez beats ' ] ( song prod. Lenko ))

You can't blame me for the anger and the hate I feel I only know you from the pictures I be getting in my head When I be thinking bout what could've been or should've been And I wanna say I miss you, but nigga who the fuck are you Nigga tell me just where on this fucking planet will I ever get another you Nigga you abandoned twins How the fuck am I supposed to see this thing from another view I really hate the man you almost turned me into I get the feeling if you didn't die and got to see my money multiply You would've came back, but only cause it's beneficial Man I'm mad at you for leaving, I hate myself for grieving Crying for a nigga who don't know if I done died or I'm still breathing A nigga who didn't know what I was eating A nigga who just let another nigga take his spot I'll forever thank the lord for the father that I've got He's everything you not, he's intelligent and well respected I never thought that I would see a person that is perfect Till I met him, and now that I'm a man I finally understand why I am the way I am But I'm changing, I've been turning to a better person By the man I almost wish would take your place in heaven Till I realize that you won't go there I wanna say that you're the devil, but then I know only a demon would know And I don't, so it proves I ain't your son Dad I'm sorry, I apologize And when I rise man I might tell our story many times I don't know you so the fantasies are what I will immortalize Love you but I hate you at the same time Rest in peace my nigga, I forgive you