Negative

I thought you knew me I thought that you knew I was fucked up I told you over and over All you would give me was tough love When I was going through my worst When I thought the only way out was a hearse Everyone thinks that I'm so down to earth But I know the power I hold in my words They're always so negative I don't want to be negative I want you to know that you're relevant That you matter and you'll get ahead of it That you can get past the impediment That you're made of more than just sediment I know it's rough with your parents But You got a chance of repairing it I thought you knew me You acted like you could see through me I couldn't believe you would actually choose me I didn't feel right for a month You asked me to put up a front Like why are you keeping this secret Who are you hiding me from I'll do whatever you want I know it's never enough I was up wishing for death again Mom gets upset when I bring that shit up This isn't fair to me It's fucking embarrassing Ask where you were and you lied I couldn't do this to you if I tried I don't want to be negative I thought you knew Me You honestly felt so familiar Like we'd met each other before In a dream that I couldn't remember What am I fighting this for What am I really afraid of I'll never give up on myself Some of us didn't forget where we came from I thought you knew me I'm not a fan of Commitment You say it's you or the music Gotta take care of my business And my feelings are valid Even if you're not about it I finally know what I'm worth Try to talk down on me I won't allow it I don't want to be negative I want to tell you that you're not defined by your past People will notice you giving your max Soon you'll feel better the pressure will pass You're up to the task I promise I know that you're giving the effort You're going above and beyond Stressing about it till it makes you Chest hurt Everyone's searching for peace We cope with unhealthy release I hope I'm helping you see that All that you need is yourself and belief But My life is imperative And I have to to take care of it asked who you were and you lied I couldn't do this to you if I tried I don't want to be negative