Love Scars

I really want love but it's too hard Gave everything in my last run Said I was the type you ain't had yet Remember the nights we used to have fun Smoking our weed to watch the sunset Holding each other while confess Our past mistakes don't make us who we are Took a different path but that just makes us who we are Yea either you want to stay or you don't I'm tired of playing all these games Either with you or the people in room Cause all of you assume that I am the worst Now I feel consumed left here to hurt But fuck it I ain't letting you win But I'm feeling so grateful that all of it painful I don't want to fucken end Wanna put all of this weight in my bag Grinding for that shit that I never fucken had Living so broke but I can't repeat the past Life is a movie but I need a different cast Feel like if life isn't you I don't really want it cause of what we went through Had a hard time accepting the truth Never saw it coming especially from you It's one in the morning sitting by my lonesome Phone on one percent but know I had to write some Don't know where I'm at in life it seems like I can't get out my head so I pipe down Load the bong up on rainy days I feel light now This hard work I'm putting don't feel like it My bad karma should've gone since last year When the violets bloomed last winter didn't last as long It was hot on the block from night till morn Still is but I'm never home I got the keys just the wrong ones to right door I'm not of the norm didn't choose dorms I chose drugs I chose thugs cause that's what Tupac was Like DMX I'm just riding rough can't get enough can you hear a bluff Ain't acting tough that's just how it be when you coming out the mud I've lost my only love and all it did was make me numb That's what you get for making dumb choices Giving into the voices cause you're feeling voiceless Feeling poison seeping through Praying for somebody to help but only soldier through