The Moment

The moment I saw you Fucked me up for years to come The instant I lost you Fucked me up for everyone The time that it's taken Never can it be reclaimed The life I'd forsaken For this you cannot be blamed The choices I made then Now they seem so alien The voices I gave them All they did was wail and run The dreams that I borrowed All so misinterpreted They left me with sorrow Left me with the life I've lived Grieving lasts at least a lifetime Though it only takes a moment Meeting you was struck by lightning And this pain, I've got to own it While your shadow will not leave me I've got a light that's stronger still And while I know you don't grieve me In other worlds, I know you will While I could have had you Better that I never did Because I'd have left you When you said you wanted kids Or worse yet, kept silent Suffering without a name A brain ever violent Hiding it like every shame And years on, when I heard That you'd found a better fit My fears rang with each word That I'd die and that'd be it More years passed; I'm still here But I stay away from you For I still have the fear That I can't escape from you Grieving lasts at least a lifetime Though it only takes a moment Meeting you was struck by lightning And this pain, I've got to own it While your shadow will not leave me I've a light that's stronger still And while I know you don't grieve me In other worlds, I know you will Sleeping in the bed I made Secrecy is the key Buried in a shallow grave Don't set alarms for me Show your face, and I will run But you won't look for me After all, I'm hardly one But still you cannot see The moment I saw you Better that I never did The instant I lost you When you said you wanted kids The time that it's taken Suffering without a name The life I'd forsaken Hiding it like every shame The choices I made then Led you to a better fit The voices I gave them When I die, they will be it The dreams that I borrowed May they stay away from you They left me with sorrow Yet I can't escape from you Grieving lasts at least a lifetime Though it only takes a moment Meeting you was struck by lightning And this pain, I've got to own it While your shadow will not leave me I've a light that's stronger still And while I know you don't grieve me In other worlds, I know you will Grieving lasts at least a lifetime Though it only takes a moment Meeting you was struck by lightning And this pain, I've got to own it While your shadow will not leave me I've a light that's stronger still And while I know you don't grieve me In other worlds, I know you will Grieving lasts at least a lifetime Though it only takes a moment Meeting you was struck by lightning And this pain, I've got to own it While your shadow will not leave me I've a light that's stronger still And while I know you don't grieve me In other worlds, I know you will Grieving lasts at least a lifetime Though it only takes a moment Meeting you was struck by lightning And this pain, I've got to own it While your shadow will not leave me I've a light that's stronger still And while I know you don't grieve me In other worlds, I know you will Grieving lasts at least a lifetime Though it only takes a moment Meeting you was struck by lightning And this pain, I've got to own it While your shadow will not leave me I've a light that's stronger still And while I know you don't grieve me In other worlds, I know you will The moment I saw you Better that I never did The instant I lost you When you said you wanted kids The time that it's taken Suffering without a name The life I'd forsaken Hiding it like every shame The choices I made then Led you to a better fit The voices I gave them When I die, they will be it The dreams that I borrowed May they stay away from you They left me with sorrow Yet I can't escape from you The moment I saw you Better that I never did Because I'd have lost you When you said you wanted kids While I could have had you You have found a better fit So don't let me see you Now we're at the end of it