Pray for me

Nothing but persistent thoughts of pain and gloom All by myself in this lonely room Look Open up my heart and take a look homey I think I'm bad for everybody that's good for me Just a lonely bastard nothing to live for Bet if I went missing nobody would look for me If good days will ever come I hope they come sooner I've been stressed so long I lost my sense of humour Anybody play with me I call it foolery Yeah Like why you trying to make a fool of me They look at me and say I'm joking I say no you're not I get violent like what you talking about My prolonged stress caused me and laughter to disconnect I can't distinguish between humour and disrespect I might need some psychological support now I used to be a nice guy my temper short now I used to hurt people's feelings and feel bad about it I don't know no remorse of any sort now And I wish to have people as a part of me But I prefer my space and I don't want no one to bother me And it's not like I've been like this from the start I Just got a heavy spirit I just got a broken heart Pray for me Yeah pray for me Yo and it's not like I've been like this from the start I just got a heavy spirit and I got a broken heart Pray for me Yeah born just to live and die And that's vanity someone tell me why A light at the end of this tunnel It's either it ain't there or I got a blurry eye A peaceful future sounds so good to be true When the only person you belong to is you Hey even God seems distant It's like if he exists then he only belongs to a few Even if you're an angel You stay in hell too long you're gonna start to think that Heaven don't exist Like you was having delusions Mental revolution Depression is believing death is your only solution And have nobody to tell you that that's a lie That you gon heal and you gon fly Coz some of us really don't get many friends So right now I'm asking you that if you ever get the chance Pray for me Yeah pray for me Yo It's not like I've been like this from the start I Just Got a heavy a spirit and I got a Broken heart pray for me I felt pain so long I got numb to it I go through my worst days like it ain't nothing to it I see it coming I don't fight it I just let it They try to help me and I tell them just forget it Ain't no use You gon lose This is war, ain't no truce It took away my desires for a future For a baby Or a muse I don't think I'm capable to lead a happy home People around me make jokes and they left alone Imagine me with a happy wife and happy kids How could I give them peace when I myself got special needs See how much I doubt myself How could I love someone else when I don't love myself Man pray for me Pray for me Yeah my head hurt like I got knocked over I only seen cold shoulders no hot shoulder They ask me yo why you never have a lover homie I say cuz you can't spell lover without over But true love can possibly heal me I know like in the movies you feel me yo I know you love me but before I love you back Baby girl you need to first help me to love myself Pray for me Yeah pray for me Look it's not like I've been like this from the start I just got a heavy spirit and I got a Broken heart Pray for me