Stargaze (Black Wings Version)

(I finally learned to breathe once you came into my life. And for that, I am forever grateful) Head on the pillow as my eyes drift Psychology willows into the silence The ethereal plane seems to be screaming my name So leave me to gaze so I can reach into space Mind is now lifted of my own accord Perspective has shifted to what it wasn't before As long as my eyes keep on blockin' the shine From the outer things surroundin' me, I'll probably be fine Reality seeps in the cracks in my brain I'd rather be seekin' to master my game Than to be in bed alone at night wonderin' what I'm here for I just bet like $45 I won't live out this year or If I do, I'll finally end up in therapy It might be due to rightfully tense up the air in me Can't feel my lungs when the trauma's fillin' 'em up I'mma taste of the love that comes when I'm noddin' and slumped The land of dreams the same to me as basically a made up scene We say we're free, then fail to sleep 'cuz angry teams are maiming me Then gratefully I'll pray to keep the 80 things that's shaping me So graciously 180 miles away from me Leave me alone, just let me be me I need to be home and feelin' this scene I need you to know I've been seekin' for weeks The streets to the gold that we can see in our dreams Every time we look up at the skylight Twinkle twinkle little star, it's like reflective hindsight My mind's bright with visions To them, I should've listened If I had gone the distance, then I wouldn't be sickened By my own reflection and the imperfections that I see in me I guess I should've mentioned my reflection's smiling evilly Intrusive thoughts manifest themselves as my own vices Reduce the cost of the things I need to get alright then I swear, being awake just hurts So I sleep my pain off to store those hateful burns Into a body that I'll leave as I astral project So I can look around and see all of the facets of death I'm entertained at the thought of my own mind Like clothes lines, my train of thought has hung me to go dry Danglin' off the plank of a rail the party temps me with I've maybe gone insane from the tales of my own testaments I never would've guessed that I would be here Fighting off my righteous with vices, I never see clear Siding with the guy that tried to ice his life five times My reflection always says that I have such a nice cry Encourage it, it's makin' me sleep more I'm sure to fit into the basement of these floors My seams torn, they seem scorned, no remorse Crawling into depression's obsessive yet sweet holds I'm manifesting my future with these next couple lines I'm scared of letting the sutures leaves scars upon my mind I pray for safety to the energies around me I may be saving myself from everyone who doubts me Disassociation, mental-locked enslavement Forced to see my life through the perspective of a game, it Seems like nothing I do even matters Maybe we're just reading different chapters Every song is a therapy session I can't afford Every hook is a moment I realized that I was scorned Every verse is a hit that takes me anywhere that's foreign Every word is a memory explaining why I'm torn Every song is a therapy session I can't afford Every hook is a moment I realized that I was scorned Every verse is a hit that takes me anywhere that's foreign Every word is a reason why I wish I wasn't born Let me sleep Fuck If my life burns away Relentlessly ending everything around me Trust that I'll work harder than ever Ending the cycle for future generations Realizing I'm hopeless enabled my growth Encouraging love over all else Yearning for a better tomorrow Fire cleanses the soul Only my lungs rupture from the smoke Youthful exuberance opened my eyes Uniting my soul to yours I can finally breathe