Losing

I cried in your car You drove slow like you were afraid we'd crash if you hit sixty I cracked when you were with me I don't remember the last time I let myself cry Around someone other than her I don't think you had the words Feel like we're trying to ignore it all When I know it's better to sit in the feeling When we get home I'll shut the door and I'll text you from behind Some weird misshapen line I can get angry in front of anyone I can laugh about the stupid things she said But I don't know how to completely let myself go Eyes all blurry, you're turning up the radio I just want someone to hold me Tell me you're not going anywhere I'm terrified and lonely It feels like no one in the world could care about me that deeply when She lost the love and who's to say it won't happen again I was good for two days She isn't crying while I'm in the waves The roar of the ocean, I'm no longer hoping for a return It's ten PM and a text came through "can we work this out, maybe it's you" But maybe isn't gonna cut it this time Lay on the couch, there's a tissue box living there now Kind of incredible it still seems to be full Watching the flowers grow where I sit in the morning Happy but mourning who I was before Knowing that there's more to come But I just want someone to hold me Tell me you're not going anywhere I'm terrified and lonely It feels like no one in the world could care about me that deeply when She lost the love and who's to say it won't happen again Again again again oh again