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Um, but yeah you know we actually We started out as friends And we were friends for like two years Um, before we got together And I think that's how you really fall in love Because you know a lot of the time When you first meet somebody that you're attracted to Your first thought is like Okay, how am I gonna make them fall in love with me? You know like what can I say Or what can I do to make them attracted to me? But the issue with that is Even if they do eventually fall for you You know they fall for somebody that isn't you They become attracted to this specially designed Fake version of you that you've created specifically for them And it's not real It's just not real, it's not who you really are, right But then as friends, none of that's there, you know There's no underlying motivation You're not trying to be somebody you're not, you know You're just being yourself And you're spending time together just 'cause You like each other for who you are I don't think I've ever felt so comfortable around someone, really Because honestly a lot of the time When I'm hanging out with people There's kinda this pressure to make sure that like You know I'm saying the right things or I'm acting the right way But with her that you know that just wasn't there You know I didn't feel that way Like I really felt like I could just Be myself and I wasn't thinking about how I'm presenting myself I was just being me and I just I love that like I love, I loved that feeling because You know we could literally be doing anything We could be anywhere And I would just you know I would just be happy to be around her It doesn't matter where we are, it doesn't matter what we're doing Like just being in her presence would be enough One thing that I love about falling in love is just How deeply you get to know someone Like you really start to pick up on all the little details All the little things that really make them who they are You know what I mean Like you, you start to notice like The way that they, you know the way that they walk Or even the way that they sit depending on their mood You know you pick up on all the little details In their facial expressions and And you can tell how they feel like the second you see them And I just love that because that's, you know that's That's something that you don't really have with most people It's like, it's like a level of intimacy that you just don't have with You know most of the people in your life and I don't know, I just, I love that I'll be talking to my friends and You know I'll tell them that like I'm still not over her and I'm still thinking about her all the time and they're like Bro like just get over it already, get over it already It's been so long, you know Like aw I feel bad for you They'll tell me, I feel bad for you 'cause it's been so long and You just need to move on at this point But the thing is like when I say that I miss her Really what that means is that she's irreplaceable in a sense That's really what that means because you know Most people they move on and they find somebody else To kinda fill that void And to fulfil those needs Um, but in my case you know I can't find someone like her I still haven't found someone that Um, makes me feel the way that she did So, it's like yeah you know of course I still miss you I still can't find someone that makes me feel the way you did