Red Lines

Everything is so loud Only hear blaring sound Curling up on the ground Hold my ears and cry Begging for some peace and quiet Tortured by deafening silence Longing for an end to the sound Need to make the noises stop So damn bright it hurts my eyes I turn off the lamps but I still see light And I cry to myself at night Only way to make it stop is a way to die Tried everything I can to shut off the lights Smash the bulbs to pieces but they still just fucking shine I can't eat or sleep at night Don't know how much longer I can fight this fight I can't do it anymore I've been fighting for so long I cannot find a way out It's so bright and it's so loud Fighting for my life for so many months And I'm getting tired I don't wanna do anymore of this I just wanna be at peace I don't wanna live, I don't wanna die I just want it all to end I just wanna feel like I even know Who the fuck are my friends Red ribbons stretch across my wrist And purple splotches on my thighs and chest Orange and blue fill my stomach Twenty-seven hundred milligrams in my system I'm tired of being in pain And I fear I'm too far gone Not sure anything could help me out ??? Shiny eyes leak out into The open canyons of my doom Tears and sweat and blood infuse To the elixir of my youth I cannot get out of here I'm constantly living in fear I feel claustrophobic in an empty room I'm sure, I know it's my doom Pieces in my room I already know my doom Feeling hopeless more and more Drain myself out on the floor Red ribbons cover me Kill the man I seem to be I can't live until I die No No! There's too much noise In every direction it seems so loud All around me noises blare Even the quiet sounds of nature hurt my ears Even in silence my thoughts are deafening I want it to be quiet I want to make the noise go away I want to experience silence I cover my ears but I still hear the noise I can be at peace when I'm finally dead I'm ready to give my ears a break I wanted to be a better son A better friend A better man I tried and tried and nothing worked I feel there's only one thing left for me to try I'm gonna take a nap now A bit longer than my usual ones I'm sorry I love you Goodbye.