ONIMATO

It's like I'm just It's like I'm just existing at this point I'm losing my faith Forgetting my purpose And losing sense of everything that once mattered to me Take my tears turn em' into wine Everyday I'm scared less of dying Growing jaded from the cold wind My soul is tainted heart frozen What is love if it causes pain Up above is that all in vain Hard to find where my faith is at Maybe one day I'll take it back Maybe one day I'll be okay Hard to stomach these lonely days Soul ablaze will I burn in hell So much rage and I hate myself How much more will my soul endure What the fuck am I hoping for Everyday is the same ol shit What if happiness don't exist No What if happiness don't exist And all these problems just can't be fixed No What if happiness don't exist Fuck What if happiness don't exist What if happiness don't exist And these damages can't be fixed What if sadness is all you feel Flashbacks become all too real What's a God when you live with demons Every thought is so damn deceiving Hard to smile when inside I'm grieving Bleeding out no one hears me screaming fuck So many answers with no explanations How the fuck can I bow down to a God who leaves his own child forsaken Growing cold my soul is vacant No one knows I'm slowly breaking If he jumps off no one save him If he jumps off no one save him It feels like I'm falling deeper and deeper and deeper into this endless void It's dark in here I'm lost I'm lost Everyday the burden deepens on me Feels like a million demons on me My anxiety's been rampant Out in public and I start to panic I been damaged by my own blood So I don't trust and I don't open up The soul of man is broken so corrupt I'm sick of hoping that I fall in love With life again I'm dying within it hurts Can't help but feel this all that I deserve I'm sorry for the words I never said One half of me is numb the others dead No One half of me is numb the others dead My sanity has sunken me in debt With misery this hell will never end